i was reading thatgirloverthere's blog And it got me thinking about my own dad and the problems that have arisen as I grew the up. I'm totally not a bad kid, im 16, I do Ok in school, I don't hang with the wrong people and even if I do I don't let just anybody influence me. I'm a unique person, and as for my thoughts and feelings, no one quite understands them and so I'm like a black sheep. But still my dad acts like I'm a crazy lunatic And he thinks by holding me back and being rude to me that I will turn out some loyal disciplined child. He even expects me to live here when I start college in 2 years. Trust me, first day I can I'm moving out of this joint. I do appreciate what my father does. And that he didn't walk out on me even though he could have. And I would rather live with him than my mom when they divorced, but as for how things have been the past few years it leaves me speechless. I don't think the same about him, he completely changed, all this stress he takes out on me, and I just know in my little heart I don't deserve this . But I put up with it. He swears at me. Kicked me out. Blames me for so much. And I have never told him I hated him. But because I don't say these things, how will he learn that he is doing wrong? I still have a lil bro and sis for him to raise, I don want him to do this to them, it messes u up, in such a big way, and they're not strong enough to weather the storm like I did. So am I respectful for not telling him off, or Stupid Selfish Making a mistake?? One of the only reasons I didn't leave the day he kicked me out Was knowing my lil bro and sis DO appreciate me. I guess I'm done venting. Anyone else have a douschedad!?