This is what I do

What most people do not see

To cry alone silently

And the pillow catching my tears for me

The reasons for crying

The list could go on

But most of them are sad for me

And for a moment I dont want the tears gone

I'll let it flow

Warm and quite comforting

Letting it out, letting it go

And just keep on crying

Cry for the most shallow reasons

Getting too lost in my thought

Cry because no one understands

Cry because I doubt

Cry because I have done wrong

And all that damn regret

Cry because I am hurt

Until my cheeks and pillow are wet

To cry just because I feel like it

No one to comfort me because I dont want them to

Just cry secretly

Thats all I want to do

To cry of Faith loss and returned

Talk to the divine, prayers be told

Deepest secrets revealed

Finding everything too cold

To cry because I realize

People are not what I see them to be

I have dissapointed them

And they sure have dissapointed me

To cry of the choices I have to make

The risks that are waiting to be taken

The mysterious future

And just about anything

To cry of what I have loss

And the things I'm suppose to gain

To cry because I think I am just unlucky

Things I do just end up in vain

To cry of the things I cant do

Because of the limits that I have in me

Not too confident, not too smart

Not worthy enough as others see

To cry of the sad things and the sad thoughts

To cry of the bleak music I hear in my earphones

Just cry and cry

Let the sadness creep through my bones

Crying is something I do in hiding

I'm afraid I am already damaged

The silly and outrageous reasons

I have to carry all that baggage

Will everything be alright?

Will everything be okay?

I guess they will, they always do

In an odd and mysterious way

Once the tears are shed

And I wipe them away

To hide it with a smile

Face another day...

  tears...nice to shed while you cry in bed