sorry you guys :( (to all my so-amazing-words-aren't-enough 185 subscribers that is sometimes all I have to think about to smile even when I'm crying)

I promise I'll make it up to you with the updates that do come along.

promise.

everything got really...randomly hectic, with school...like...it took me by surprise...all the readings I had to catch up on, all this homework I was suddenly aware was due...I'd been avoiding the concept of school for a while, but I can't anymore...;_;

sorrysorrysorry <3. sorry ;(. I haven't forgotten at all.

I'm excited for Onew's Moan because a new character will be introduced - I wonder how that will blow over though, I never really introduce new characters that actually have roles. I think it'll be interesting. a reader suggested this path, and I'm really interested to see how this plays out. I love taking requests in fics - btw. or even requests for one shots, one shots are easy to write - don't have to plan ahead or anything.

Innocence Torn - Onew just became my favourite. he really did. his character just hugged me. he's so...aish, you'll see in the update. ALSO A WONDERFUL READER - kpopgeek - made a cover page for Innocence Torn. OH MY GOSH, IT LOOKS ABSOLUTELY AMAZING. it's so PERFECT. you should check out her fics too - they're pretty awesome. I think I'll end up updating Innocence Torn first, just so I can update the title page, and everything. (gets excited)

I think I'll write a little bit now before I go into nerd mode...it's funny cause I usually write to just escape...this is a REALLY nice escape. wouldn't it be really nice if I could just do this for the rest of my life and not have to worry about anything else ;_;.

ah, I graduated yesterday. my dad- "you didn't get any awards." my mom- (who by the way didn't even come despite me asking her countless times to) "..." (did I mention she scoffed when I came home and gave me the silent treatment?)

(sighs) yeah. they...yeah.