Want to kill yourself? Imagine this.

You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, and close the door, take out that suicide note you've written over and over again. You take out those razor blades and cut for the very last time. You grab that bottle of pills and take them all. Laying down holding the letter to your chest, you close your eyes for the very last time. A few hours later, your little brother knocks on your door to come tell you dinner is ready.

You don't answer, so he walks in. All he sees is you lying on your bed so he thinks your asleep. He tells your mum this. Your mum goes into your room to wake you up, she notices something is odd. she grabs the paper in your hand and reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake you up. She's screaming your name. Your brother, so confused runs to go tell dad that ''mummy is crying and sissy won't wake up'' your dad runs into your room. He looks at your mum, crying, holding the letter to her chest, sitting next to your lifeless body. It hits him, what's going on, and he screams. He screams and throws something at the wall. And then, falling to his knees he starts to cry. Your mum crawls over to him and they sit here, holding each other crying.

The next day at school there is an announcment. The principal tells everyone about your suicide. It takes a few seconds to sink in, and when it does, everyone goes silent. Everyone blames themselves. Your teachers think they were too hard on you. Those mean popular girls think of all the things they've said to you.

That boy who used to tease you and call you names, couldn't help but hate himself for never telling you how beautiful you really are. Your ex-boyfriend, the one you told everything to, that broke up with you...can't handle it. He breaks down, starts crying and runs out of the school. Your friends? They're sobbing too, wondering how they could never see something was wrong. Wishing they could have helped you before it was too late.

And your bestfriend, she's in shock, she can't believe it. She knew you were going through but she never throught it would get as bad as this, bad enough for you to end it. She can't cry, she can't feel anything. She stands up and walks out of the classroom and just sinks to the floor. Shaking, screaming but no tears coming out. It's a few days later, at your funeral.

The whole town came, everyone knew you, that girl with the bubbly personality. The one who was always there for them, the shoulder to cry on. Lots of people talk, but there all the good memories they had with you, there were alot. Everyone is crying, your brother still doesn't know you killed yourself, he's too young. Your parents told him you died.

It hurts him, a lot. You were his big sister, you were supposed to always be there for him. Your bestfriend stays strong through the entire service, but as soon as they start lowering your casket into the ground, she just loses it. She cries and cries and doesn't stop for days. It's two years later.

The whole school talks to a counsellor at least once a week. Your teachers have all quit there jobs. Those mean girls have eating disorders now. That boy who used to tease you, cuts himself. Your ex-boyfriend doesn't know how to love anymore and just sleeps around with girls.

Your friends all go into depression. Your bestfriend?

She tries to kill herself, she didn't succeed like you. Your brother? He finally finds out about your death. He self-harms, he cries at night. He does exactly what you did for years leading up to your death. Your parents? Their marriage fell apart. Your dad became a workaholic to distract himself from your death.

Your mum got diagnosed with depression and just lies in bed all day long. 
People care. You may not think so, but they do. Your choices don't just affect you, they affect everyone. Don't end your life. You have so much to live for. Things can't get better if you give up. Im here for absolutly anyone who needs to talk, no matter who you are. Even if we've never talked before.

Im here for you.

Always.