Just wanted to blog something I've been keeping locked in my heart.

Ever since we migrated to another country.. I've never experience being a teenager. I was always at home helping my parents and had to take all emotions in. I can't disclose it to anyone since no one would even listened.

It has been like that before I enter a college institution here. I was the youngest in class... Everyone was 21 and above (mostly 30 years old and above) and I was left alone as a 16 year old. I couldn't tell them my age at first because aome may think I'm just a nuisance to be their classmate. But 3 people knew (from my course) and it was fine to them.. though they ouldn't believe at first. I also was happy when 2 girls from the same home country became my friends..

I was able to be happy and experience being a teenager with them though they were older than me. But once classes ended... My life again..

Back to the me who follows orders like  a puppy.

Then my friend introduced me to this site and I was happy, enjoying the things I'm encoutering and having fun updating and stuff..

You could say.. I would tell my parents that I was doing homework (which is half true) and that I need to use the internet so I would the use until I am satisfied and until the chores that were supposed to be done by me are done by them.

For the past 16 years of my life, it's been little ups and more on downs...

I hate it.... I envy my older brother who my parents would always say "you should always go out and have fun" and my little brther who could get most of the things he wanted.. but me? "You can't go. Nobody's going to take care of your brother" or "We're going so you stay here"...

It pisses me off but what could I do?

My allowance comes from them and I know I can't support myself yet... but still...

My family stole my youth. My family took my teenage years to satisfy themselves...

I hate it.. a lot...