I failed my thesis defense.

I'm this close to get my bachelor degree but I failed. They said I have to add some things into my thesis so that my thesis' grade won't be a waste since I put a lot of effort in it. They could've pass me with a so-so grade but they felt it was such a pity considering my efforts making it. I myself prefer to pass with a so-so grade because then I can graduate on October. Now with their decision failing me just for me to get a better grade I should postpone my graduation until April.

It hurts, it hurts that I have to work on my thesis over and over again. It because I can't graduate with my close friends. It sadden me that I can't make my family proud of me yet. But people say God always have better ways and things for you. I do believe it, it's just....this is still hard to accept, since I'm THAT close to being SO happy by saying goodbye to college and my thesis, to graduate with my close friends, to make my family look at me and proudly say "My daughter/sister got her bachelor degree!"

A little refreshing and time will heal, I guess... Then I can fix my thesis then re-do my thesis defense one or two months from now.. I just hope that it won't be too long to raise my spirit up, because I'm still longing that moment when I can see the proud in my family's eyes. And I don't want that moment to be too long from now.