This is just sorta a vent blog and if you guys have any advice, please give it! 

Okay, so... I really don't know if this would be considered a crush. But, it's the first time I have ever really had feelings for someone since I had my heart broken. But at the same time, I met him when a lot of things were going wrong. So I don't know if maybe I was desperate. But, at the same time, he mad me feel better and that's not something easily done. I was in the worst mood last night, but I got to talk to him and immediatly, I felt better. I don't know. It really scares me because I don't want to be hurt again. But at the same time, I know that I can't focus on what can go wrong. I have to focus on what can go right. 

And here is my other... issue? Okay, on the first or second day of school, I became friends with this guy named Kyler and he really is amazing. So funny and nice and a lil bit crazy. Well, it was easy to tell that he wasn't straight. So I brought it up to one of his close friends and they told me that he is bi. Well we hang out everyday and sit by each other every single day at lunch and it's sooooo much fun. Well, he told me the other night that he likes me. But, I can't see him that way. And even after he told me, he still called me his best friend and it hasn't been awkward at all or anything. But it still weirds me out. Not because he is bi. That doesn't bother me at all. But he has freelly expressed that he prefers guys over girls. Which again, I am fine with. Whatever floats your boat. But... he is asking me to homecoming. And I'm okay with that too. Because I am going to explain that I don't see him more than friends. I love him to death and going with him is going to be soooo much fun. But I know that he is going to ask me in a really sweet, unique way using Harry Potter stuff.... I love Harry Potter T_T. And I'm not worried about starting to talk to a guy then them want to bring me to homecoming and even if that did happen, I would never ever blow off Kyler. I would just explain the situation to the guy. But, there really isn't anyone at my school I am interested in. Which brings me to my next point.

Kyler was going to ask this girl he is really close with that he actually took to Sadies. But her mom said that she wanted Abbey to go with someone that she actually likes because homecoming is a bigger deal than Sadies. And I completely agree. I think that homecoming... isn't a big deal. Like, I don't freak out about it. But then again I would much much rather go with someone that I am interested in rather than a best bi friend. But at the same time, there isn't anyone I like right now... Or at least any guys that like me. I just don't know. Opinions?