Pride. We all have it, we all know how important it is and for that special someone, we can all give it up for a short period of time, but not for a lifetime. I told her I would lower my pride and apologize to her friend since I said something hurtful to her friend. Fine fair enough, I apologized. But her friend didn't want to accept my apology and told me that sorry can't change anything.

To my friend :

I've already bowed down and apologized, what more do you want? It was my fault, I apologized, I asked what I could do to make it right and you told me straight in the face that money doesn't solve anything. Why would I spend money on you, in which parallel universe am I spending money on anyone to right a wrong? This is downright insult to me. Even though I said one hurtful thing, I apologized, there's nothing more I can do. Even if you hate me, you shouldn't go and tell my crush everything I've did wrong, and lie about some things I didn't do at all. Yeah I don't buy presents, why? I don't enjoy buying presents, the only presents I've ever bought for friends were a teddy bear for my ex, a toy stuffed raccoon for another ex and a stuffed pig for my now ex-crush. You didn't need to make her hate me to the extent where she threw away my present and my card. Mind you, I have never in my life bought a card and wrote a letter of encouragement for anyone. Not even my ex-girlfriends. Thank you for making this first tiime such a memorable experience because now, I'll show what I meant 4 years ago when  said ,"If you treat me like thrash, I'll treat you like garbage."

To my crush :

Hey, guess what? You don't throw away someone's gift and post it on twitter. Big mistake girl, guess what? My phone app allows me to get notifications every time you post a new tweet and I can see your new tweet on my lock screen even though you blocked me. I'm really really really disappointed and angry at you. Sorry doesn't cut it this time. I told you for you and my friends I cherish, I will throw away my pride momentarily. But this is too much. I mean really..

I have nothing to say to you anymore.

God I'm bawling my eyes out now.