And the ranting begins...

So I've been really down lately.

Why?

Because I know I'm not a great singer. But I still sing and sing until I lose my voice and get a really sore throat, to the point where it's unbearable, just to improve even the tiniest bit on my singing. I know my range isn't very big, and I'm trying to expand it. But there's just a certain point where I hold back because I don't want to be judged. I'd sing out so much more if I was alone, secluded in a dark room with a piano by myself. But that's not the case. And I have very low self-esteem, if you haven't noticed. Along with that low self-esteem, my dad tells me my singing gives him a headache, my brother insults my singing all the time.

Here's just a few examples of what I hear from him:

"Your singing !"

"You're the worst singer in the world!"

"You broke my window from all that terrible noise you call singing."

"I'm sure people would pay just to get you to shut up."

Pretty harsh, no? My whole family, besides my mom, thinks my dreams are silly, and put me down instead of encouraging me. They think singing is stupid, which pisses me off. I've honestly gotten so close to the point of giving up on everything I've worked for, singing and dancing included, where I've even lost all confidence and wanted to give up singing. That was, until one man decided to steal my heart and make me fall completely in love with him. He is the only reason I'm still singing, and my only hope to chase my dreams. He's my inspiration, because I know that he would tell me not to give up.

Who is this amazing guy?

The one and only, Kim Jong Woon.

Yesung has the most amazing voice I've EVER heard. He sings with so much emotion, that I honestly fall in love every time I hear his voice. And he's just plain cute adorable hot y handsome as . His voice is my inspiration. I will endure anything and everything to reach my dreams. ♥

P.s., I just felt the need to rant. If you have an opinion or similar situation, do comment. ^.^