I've been bottling this up for the past what, 3 months I guess? Yup, definitely 3 months since she came back from college. The 'she' I'm talking about, is none other than, my own sister .

She've been away from home for 2 years now and she came back for 9 months here to undergo a practical training before she gets into the real working environment . Sure thing, at first I'm glad bcos finally I thought I had someone to talk to. Being the youngest in the family with other siblings is away is a really hard thing, for me to go through (lucklily my 7 fluffy cats were there for me, yippee! )

But the thing is,

SHE'VE CHANGED. LIKE TOTALLY. 360 DEGREES. NO JOKING.

She started to get grumpy upon the slightest thing, she yell at me more than she often did before she went away, she doesn't listen to me anymore, she has a boyfriend and when he called her, she changed into a completely different person than she is with me. All bubbly and loving. Whenever I'm in the room when she's on the phone with her boyfriend, I had to resrain myself from cursing her SO badly.

 But she's confusing me too at the same time. One moment she's like all b***hy and the other moment, she started being nice SO suddenly. I just don't know what to do when that happen at most of time when I decided I want to despise her SO much.

Whenever I was having issues at shcool and I came home with a not-so-happy face , she would start to ask me what's wrong. I REALLY REALLY REALLY wanted to tell her but thinking that this night she maybe yelling me for God-knows-who reason, I ended up saying "Nothing" as I walked past her.

I just, can't do this anymore. I WANT MY OLD SIS BACK. The not so-bossy , dorky, easy-going girl I used to know 2 years ago. She doesn't have to be all lovey dovey *cringe* with me, just be the one I knew before she left.

I'm writing this all out on AFF bcos I know not many of you knows me personally, besides few of my friends, so I'm secured from all the judging eyes compared to if I wrote my own blog.

Last words: There is still some space left for you sis in my heart, come back before it's too late. Because when that happens, even I'm scared what the outcome will be.

LOVE YOU SIS :'(