I'm so not myself recently. In a way that I dont recognize myself anymore.

For the past few months I've been trying to change myself for the better, to become a more objective, to a more rational person.

But the thing is, as I did, I lost track of myself. I don't know weather I changed my way of treating others or not, but the me on the inside changed.

My easy going self is fading, I've became more serious to a point that I'm irritated by my friends, who are oblivious to my change. I don't know who I am anymore. Arent I changing for the better? Why am I losing myself then?

I became more hot tempered. And emotional.

It's like I'm getting weaker and I can't stop this.

Two days ago I was so angry over one thing I was screaming, and here I am today being sad over nothing.

What on earth is going on with me? My friends were so concerned, but as much as I love them, I can't bear to fake a smile.

As if my body and mind aren't mine anymore.