ugh

I feel like crap. Like seriously. Things... have gone pretty downhill the past few days. I won't go into detail, but... It's been pretty bad for me. Just when I thought it couldn't get worse, it did. I keep trying. I keep trying to make it ok. I try to control everything and keep it down, hoping to work things out, but... I just can't. It's too much. I can't do it. I'm sorry to confess that I also cut myself on my purpose. They're healing now, but still. I know it's dangerous, but I like the pain. It's a welcome distraction. I only go as far as shower razors can cut, which is barely enough to make it bleed.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry that I haven't updated a Jo Twins fic yet or that I haven't updated my TaeKai/KaiTae in a while. I feel very guilty because there are so many of my subscribers that look forward to my stories. I know how you guys feel. There are a few stories that keep me on my toes as I wait for the next update. But... No update this week. There's too much going on. I can't think clearly right now. Currently, my possible update days are Monday-Thursday, and in the morning of Friday... Oh yeah friday... Just remembered that. I'll see about getting an update out tomorrow... x.x Please don't be mad if there isn't one. I'm sorry.

 
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inktoxicated #1
Don't worry at all. Your subscribers will Patiently wait for you! Just know that there will be a time like now where you feel your worst, a pothole in the path of life that you walk. That's when people like us, your friends, will be there to help you up and get you going. It's okay to let it out. Whatever you do, don't keep your feelings bottled up or somehow, someday, you're going to have to release all the pent up emotion in one go, and you might do things that you regret. If you ever need a virtual shoulder to cry on, I'm here. :)stay strong! Fighting! XxX
MyTotomato #2
Remember that we are here for you when you need to talk. Somehow seing this post made me happy because is means you trusted us enough to see you in a place where you are weak.
That makes me feel really happy.
But than I get sad because you said you cut yourself... Please dont be afraid to talk to other AFF'ers. Some of us might be young but we are not dum. We have been through rough times and we have gone past to the happy times. Talk to us when you need to. God gave us the power to speak so we could help and heal, not to create new wounds.
loveyoutoomuch #3
I know how life can get and I just want you to know that it will get better eventually. I know it doesn't seem like that, but there will be a light at the end of the tunnel.
Also, I know it's hard to update and sometimes it gets stressful with all of the comments of "Update soon." Tske your time with it, okay? Don't worry about the stories. Figure out the stressful things in your RL life first.
I hope I don't sound demanding. Lol. I'm truely worried about you.
Hopefully it will get better soon. <3
YeoboBlood #4
it's ok dont feel bad at all. take all the time you need, your stories are worth it ok?
SilverCrow #5
It's okay don't be sorry, don't push yourself! Take how much time needed, and I'm always here if you want to talk.
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