I guess it's one of those days. I just feel so alone. It's three in the morning and, really I should be spazzing. Here I am, instead, listening to JYJ songs with tears in my eyes. I mean, it's not even about her anymore. I just feel so alone.

It's suffocating.

I can't even write my requirements. Why does it have to be today, why couldn't this desperation have waited a week? I would've welcomed it with open arms.

Please, just leave me today. Just let me have some peace of mind, not a lot, just enough to finish the things I have to do. Please.

It hurts. And I don't even know why I'm hurting and where it's all coming from.

Why am I so pathetic?