I Feel Like Giving up~
I know I may sound silly~
Many people tell me: "You are in a depression because of TVXQ? Why are so stupid and obsessed?"
What people did not know is that when the news of their split first announced, many fans like me were sad, but that was just the catalyst for me to beak-down and a break-down I had.
A week in hospital with tranquilizers was all I remembered. I was stoned out and forced to sleep.
I seriously did not know why...but I think, it was the very first time I was really into pop music...they were the ones who led me there.
After my discharge I went on to do other things, support them in ways that a normal fan would. Attend their concerts, buy their CDs, DVDs and concert goods. Buy every magazine they appear in and buy their photo books. This was all I did. Until recently, a friend introduced me to fan-fictions...i got hooked.
But as I read on, I realized how many people are giving up on writing about my few OTPs, KyuWook, YooSu, Changmin and especially, YunJae. Not that they have given up on fanfics, but they have given up on them. It swung me back into a depression...
Sometimes, I want to give up on my fics too...sometimes, I really want to stop believing that they will be 5 again. But time and again, I cannot bring myself to do that...
If only I could give up on K-pop, maybe, just maybe I will be a happier person that I used to be....
Once again, sorry for ranting my frustrations on my blog...
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