I Feel Like Giving up~

I know I may sound silly~

Many people tell me: "You are in a depression because of TVXQ? Why are so stupid and obsessed?"

What people did not know is that when the news of their split first announced, many fans like me were sad, but that was just the catalyst for me to beak-down and a break-down I had.

A week in hospital with tranquilizers was all I remembered. I was stoned out and forced to sleep.

I seriously did not know why...but I think, it was the very first time I was really into pop music...they were the ones who led me there.

After my discharge I went on to do other things, support them in ways that a normal fan would. Attend their concerts, buy their CDs, DVDs and concert goods. Buy every magazine they appear in and buy their photo books. This was all I did. Until recently, a friend introduced me to fan-fictions...i got hooked.

But as I read on, I realized how many people are giving up on writing about my few OTPs, KyuWook, YooSu, Changmin and especially, YunJae. Not that they have given up on fanfics, but they have given up on them. It swung me back into a depression...

Sometimes, I want to give up on my fics too...sometimes, I really want to stop believing that they will be 5 again. But time and again, I cannot bring myself to do that...

If only I could give up on K-pop, maybe, just maybe I will be a happier person that I used to be....

 

Once again, sorry for ranting my frustrations on my blog...

You can choose to comment, you can choose not too, but I tell you, I DO READ YOUR COMMENTS AND THEY MEAN SO MUCH TO ME^^

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ohmyyunjae
#1
its hurts me too,specially becoz of yunjae.but when it hurts i think abt my family and my life with them and my future.there's so many things to do in life.go out with family and enjoy your life to the fullest.i know you r thinking that i dont understand,but believe me,i totally understand you.i have faced so many problem and with dbsk split i broke down.but when i think of my family,i start to think that there's nothing more than my family.i'll do anyhting to keep them smiling and to keep them smiling i ave to keep smiling too.doing this,this will automatically bring a lot of happiness and keep you out of depression.this will keep you busy.go out of the house and tour around at many places where you never had been.trust me u will start to enjoy your life again.k-pop is just an entertainment world,its nothing related to real world or the lives of the singers.nobody can control their personal lives.they can be controlled as long as they r in the entertainment world.just splitting doesnt break someone's frienship or any kind of relationship.apply your common sense.dont mix up entertainment world with real world.dbsk members all know that its all business.they can do anything for business.homin understands it totally.they know why jyj came out from dbsk.but homin decided to remain.its all business,they r not angry or like anything.they r still friends becoz homin know that jyj did that for their own benefits and they will support them if they r true friends.dont believe anything on tv,just think with your common sense!what comes first come in your mind believe that and believe in yourself!!
enjoy~^^~
MynnieYumi
#2
hey dear, don't be too depressed, ok? There are still authors who writes about yoosu, yunjae and changmin. I'm one of them. Like you, when DBSK broke up I was down but then even though they are not together any more, I still believe that they did not loose contact with each other. I think they secretly contacted each other and they keep it as secret among them. Other people may not know what they have gone through and what they are doing but I still believe that they kept a good secret among them. That they are still in contact, that they are still best of friends, that they are still believe in each other, that they are still support each other. This is what I believe and I don't let others to make a fuss of it. I believe strongly what I want to believe and turned a deaf ears towards things that are bad about them. That is how I preventing myself from getting depressed because of DBSK. I believe you can do it as well. Fighting, chingu ah. ^^