Fandoms are special. We squeal, freak out, and cry together. One day in the future, you might just be working in your 9-to-5 office, lazing away the day. Something will spark in your memory, and you'll type in that familiar URL. The blogs you never unfollowed will be untouched and pristine on your dash. Many of your friends have grown up as well, but you still can't help but look at all the people you used to talk to all those years ago. Things will come flooding back, and you'll remember those years spent on your computer, laughing and yelling and agreeing as people just went crazy. You'll remember those nights you spent up all night with your friend, talking about the traits of a certain character, or how great it would be if this or that happened. You'll recall those awesome blogs you always admired. You'll feel a brief moment of nostalgia. You'll click back to your dash- it's empty now. Without a moment's hesitation, you'll go and type out, "Hey, is anyone out there?", and just like all those years ago, you'll eagerly await a response.

This made me cry and also think about future... I know for sure that I don't want to change, but I can't stop it from happening. And I feel scared. I'm scared that I'll break all those promises I give now. I prom15ed to always 13elieve, I shouted "Once a Shawol always a Shawol!" on top of my lungs, and I swore that kpop will be my life forever, but I'm afraid this won't be like this forever. I'm afraid that I'll forget, and the thought itself petrifys me. I don't want to forget! I want to stay kpop fan forever! I'll do my best to do so, but the fear is still inside me...
 

I don't even know why I'm posting this, but I felt the need to let it out.