A few days ago, a classmate of mine confessed to me in front all of my classmates.

I don't know what to do, and I told him to give me some time to think about it.

. . . I choose to reject him, because . . .

I'm not ready yet to be in a relationship. Eversince I have my first love, I never want to date, or in a relationship with someone that I'm not close. It has to be someone who are close to me, who know the real me, and I know the real him. He's my classmate, but I never really talk to him. And on the other side, I'm in love with someone else; who never really realize my presence or my feelings towards him.

I thought that, if I answered yes to the one that confessed to me, maybe my family would be happy, because, he's smart, he's a public speaker, he's nice, and he's like almost perfect. He's not ugly too. But then, I won't feel happy. I would be feeling guilty, because if I date him when I have a feeling for someone else, it's not fair for him. There would be a chance that I would think about the person I love when I'm with him, not thinking about him.

Compared to him, if I continue to like the school heartthrob, there are more consequences. Like, even in three years of high school, he won't realize that I even exist. I never really talk to him too, but we've been studying in the same school for about 910 years (9 for me due to my acceleration class). I'm not sure about him liking me back too, because I'm the invisible one, while he's the school heartthrob. Maybe I never talk to him, but.... I know him a little bit more than how a stranger should know. I know that he always maintain his school's heartthrob image, even though he likes to pout, complain and he can be easily jealous towards someone. He's childish, and spoiled by her sisters, he don't talk cheesy, and things like that. He's not smart, or stupid either. He's handsome, but looks like a monkey. He's nice but sometime's he's too cold, and he's a nonchalant person. He has a lot of flaws, but then I like him, I think I love him.

If I was told to choose between those two, maybe, I would choose the school's heartthrob. But then again, I don't know the real him.

My Ideal Type would be like:

1.Nice

2. Someone who's nonchalant

3. Passive-Agressive not Passive-Passive or Agressive-Agressive

4. Surprisingly romantic in act not in talks

5. Easy to get jealous

6. Don't do much skinship

7. It's okay if he's not handsome or rich or smart. I would choose him to be like normal people, like average people, not handsome, but not ugly too, not smart, but not stupid too, not rich but not poor too. But when you're in love, you don't really care about this stuff, right? So, It's not really a matter to me

8. Someone who can makes me smile and forget all about my problems

9. Can hold my secrets

And If I was told to choose one of my biases as my Ideal Type, it would be SHINee's Flaming Charisma, Choi Minho. Someone who's easy to get jealous.

I. . . When I was asked about my feeling towards the person that confessed to me, I thought about it for a long time. I even couldn't sleep. And in the end, I answered him. I rejected him, because that if I accept his feelings, I would feel guilty, about the unfair treatment he would get. I would think about the school's hearttrob when I'm with him....

Am I.... Doing the right thing?