I don't know. 

Most people think of me that i don't care about love. that i don't need love.

but hey, i'm still a girl..a girl with feelings.

i'm not numb.

i'm just good at keeping my feelings bottled up.  

i'm tired of being alone. i'm not saying a want a boyfriend or something..

i just want a friend to talk to.

but seems like everybody thought i'm fine to be alone.

that i'm a loner.

but please, who would be?

i'm always quiet. yes, i am.

but that doesn't mean you guys should ignore me everytime.

they always talk about me the most matured and the only one who always have her guard up.

do you think i like being like that?

heck, my family knows i'm not like that.

it's just that they force me to be with people i'm not comfortable with.. people i don't understand that's why i end up being quiet.

ask my friends. i can get all crazed up with them.

ask my sister. i can spazz up all day about kpop even though she doesn't understand a thing.

ask my girl cousin. we always hang out.

but with those kind of people i call 'friends' ? 

i always got myself propped up with : 

1. my awesome fake smiles they always buy. 

2.my sarcastic comments that they don't know i mean everything single about it. 

3.an empty stomach. why? i really found it amusing when they all look stupid . have you guys went to a cinema woithout a popcorn? it's such a waste not to eat while watching such a view.

4.my patience. they usually took up to midnight so until then i must keep a good image.

you guys might think i'm such a plastic.

it's not my fault. they made me turn to one.

if they just tried to understand me and let me find my ways other than forcing me to bond with such people...

this is just a rant! i'm just getting annoyed with all those oh-so-fake people around me ..so yeah..