I'm really sorry...

 

 

I'm really sorry that I have not update ANY of my stories, especially Battle Of The Warriors. 

Okay, there are two main reasons for this.

The first one is I have this HUGE writter's block which just won't ing get out of my head. Really, this dumb block has beeen bugging me for centuries! When I try writting like I always do, this ing wall hits me out of nowhere, I'll tell ya. Whenever I have this brilliantly brilliant idea it always seems to shirnk down to nothing again, which might kill me in the end.

And... for the second one.

I was diagnosed with Anorexia, and I'm currently having mental issues.

When I heard this news, I was...shocked. Never had i EVER imagined...me, being a little less than under-weight, and halfway crazy. I mean, yeah, I like mentally abusing myself and I like being both sadistic and masochistic, but me being in a looney hpspital just...doesn't seen right. Again, I don't feel any difference, but almost ALL of my friends think I'm depressed and that I always starve myself and all that . 

 

OKAY, So maybe i DO starve myself while mopping around, but that's just me being me. How can anybody strip me from my nature like that?!

 

So, okay, yes, I do get horrid nightmares and I barely get enough sleep, but knowing that I'm currently on pills and people are always very tense and careful around me makes me...sick. They act like I'm some sort of mentally disabled sort of person when I'm just underweight and depressed. Besides, eating cookies will fatten me up and it makes me happier so all of them should just bring me cookies and make me happy. 

I hate my therapist, by the way. Even though he's hott-ish and nice, I still think he sees me as a very complex young lady. (which I'm not.)

So, now my daily schedules are ruined. 

I sleep really late and usually wait until the sleeping pills starts to kick in. But even with pills, I only get 5-6 hours of real sleep.

 

All of this , and I'm almost 15. There's only half a month till my birthday and people are starting to avoid me, talking to me like I have Alzheimers. (Again, I don't, any I'm perfectly happy. I think)

 

So, I will try my best to update while i can. (Teachers are still bribing me to go to asylums. I almost ripped her eyes out of their puny sockets.) But don't mind me if my updates are crappy, though. It will bring me much pleasure if you could just understand, that's all. That said, and please be patient. I will update, dead or alive.

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slyferris #1
Minniiiieee :(

Writers block is the biggest punk in the whole world >:l It's really frustrating! And Anorexia..? Ommgg D:
I know what it's like when people try avoid you cause they think you're unstable or some and be all awkward around you, it . I feel so bad for you cause you're still only 14 going on 15 and have to deal with all that :\ It must be so hard...

I definitely understand why you can't update very often, don't worry about it. :) Just write when you feel like it, us readers will wait (I know I definitely will). If you ever need anyone to rant to, just message me. I hope things work you for you and your friends start treating you normally again.

<3<3<3<3<3<3
theLastGirlStanding #2
Oh and, I just searched Anorexia on Google....woah.....I could NEVER GET THAT! even if my life depended on it. I eat too much!!!! My friends tell me not to worry, saying that I have a great figure and blah, but honestly, I just have my methods of hiding belly fat.
I'm talking about myself again. Sigh.
Anyhoo, GET WELL SOON!
theLastGirlStanding #3
Woah...I never knew that u were going through so much....All my life, the worse excuse of getting into a hospital was pulling tiny balls out of my nostrils. Yes, I was retarded since kindergarden.
 My grandpa used to play this thing with tiny pea-sized balls with numbers on it. And the retarded five-year-old me decided to stick em' in my nose. Two in each hole.
((thinking about my late grandpa makes me cry....))
A thing I do when I'm sad, bored, happy, sick of life, or even while I'm experiencing a writer's block, is going through SuJu videos. (for me, Bonamana is a must)
For example, EHB, SJ Fullhouse, SJmini dramas, SJ MVs (do u know that ELFs had sent a petition to SM to point out the bad things about SuJu's previous albums?) or even videos on YouTube about sj members ruining each other's images. (I love the one when Donghae told the whole word about Sungmin's habit of wearing dresses to sleep)
Ugh, I wrote so much about myself when this is about u. Sorry. Bad habit.

I honestly feel bad about ur condition. U've been a really nice AFF friend to me. I'm always anticipating ur feedbacks on my wall or updates. LOL, ur recent one about goldfishes made me promise myself to paste it above 2moro's update.
Although we aren't friends that meet each other in real life, and we've just started exchanging long essays (LOL), AND we live in different countries, I really like you. ^_^
U're awesome.
Lastly, I want to thank Kyu for supporting me so much. Although my writing skills are far behind compared to ur's, u still root for me! That is really, really kind of u.
P.S. Since I'm grounded from my laptop, I'm typing this through tiny iPhone buttons, so I might've used a lot of abbreviations. Also, beware of stupid auto-corrections.
AngelKeky #4
Awe, now I wish I was there by your side with a box of cookies, to make you happy. TwT
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