This isn't exactly the most interesting or relevant news in the world, but I figure, if anyone will understand my obvious disappointment it'll b u all. Okay, so today I was turning in something to my old school so that they could send it to my new school (yeah, complicated & hard to explain so i won't even try. it's not important anyhow...) when something interesting happened.

So I was waiting for the councelor / advisor lady to call me in so that she could see me and I could turn in my paper (i ended up waiting for an hour to spend barely a min w/ her. can u say major waste of time?) and the door opens. Now I've gotta confess something about myself b4 I continue:

I'm not ur average American girl - meaning i'm not tall, white, curvy, cheerful, social, loud, boy-crazy, or interesting in the obvious 'as-soon-as-u-look-at-me-ur-intrigued' sense. I'm not very smart, creative, nice, and, as much as I hate noticing it, I'm not very pretty either. It's an unfair reality that I've come to accept, so don't bother showing me any pity or trying to build my self-esteem for me, both of which would b a major waste of time on ur part. Simply put, I'm as boring as they come at 1st sight & it doesn't help that I look anywhere between 3 to 6 years younger than I really am.

-sigh- Fate is cruel...

When I heard the door open and looked up (I didn't really have much else to do other than texting a few friends) this guy walked in. Now normally I would've just looked at him once and went back to texting, but this was no ordinary boy. I guess my eyes widened a little in surprise and I immediately noticed 3 things about him:

1. he's asian - i know this barely qualifies but seriously, there are NOT that many where I live so it's actually kinda rare for me to see them (mayb that's y i like jpop & kpop guys so much...)
2. he's cute, and i mean really really cute - hey, come on! i may not b boy-crazy but i am a female after all & i do notice this stuff
3. he looks sorta familiar - almost like i've seen him somewhere b4, only i know for a fact that i haven't. weird, huh?

So, in the office, I continue being bored out of my mind and, after he checks in w/ the front desk, he joins me in the seating area. He sits like right across from me and I'm trying hard to keep myself from smiling like an idiot. I mean I was already sneaking glances at him when he wasn't looking out of the corner of my eye, but then he made it that much harder for me to spy in peace. I mean, wtf lol! Luckily for me, he only caught me once or twice and (since i can't blush) thought nothing of it. Half the time he was doing the same thing I was doing b4 - texting on what looked like an iPhone.

Don't misunderstand me, tho, I wasn't being a Ninja Assassin-status stalker. I'll admit, I was looking at him because he was good looking, but there was something else to. Something about his face was super familiar and it really bothered me that I couldn't figure out why or where I'd seen him before until something clicked at the last minute when I was texting my friend about the movies (i wanna c X-Men so bad >_<).

Get this, he looked just like Alex Chu from Clazziquai Project.

Don't remember him? Here's a little reminder:

So, if u haven't already guessed it, I just about died in my chair.

Seriously, if I didn't have enough sense I might've spasmed on the spot. I texted my best kpop friend right then and there to let her know and her response was immediate: Oh . Talk to him. 'Yeah,' I thought, 'maybe in another lifetime.'

Problems w/ this scenario?

1. i can b extremely socially awkward - i CAN NOT strike up random conversations w/ strangers unless I already know we have a common interest or i have a topic on hand ready (waiting in line for a ride, during movie credits, mass group discussion in a restaurant, etc.) otherwise it just ends quickly in an awkward silence
2. i had no friends w/ me at all - no back up or right-hand person to keep the convo going or keep things from getting too awkard
3. my mom & 3 year-old sister were there w/ me - they may not have been next to me, but they were still there
4. he wasn't sitting next to me - he was across from me and we were in a room full of other bored-looking people

Given the situation, would u have made a move?

But, before I even had time to think about it, his name got called. He went into a room near the back and then, around 10 minutes later, the next name was called as he strolled out of the office and on w/ his life.

-sigh- ...what a waste.

(ideas, thoughts, words of encouragement or disdain? i'd b all too happy to hear anything u've got to offer me)