Okay there was this certain guy or should I say former suitor that I definitely hate right now. Though I said that I’ve already forgave him, there was still that painful past that he left stuck in my mind. I’m somebody who is good enough to understand people but when I’m mad at you, I will keep a grudge and will remember it forever.

You might be thinking as to what this guy has done to me to make me this mad? So here goes the story.

It occurred on my junior year in high school. He was somebody whom I met during the first official get together of a clan that I’ve joined. If I was correct, the event took place around mid September on our school (he came from a different school actually). He was portraying my favorite guy character so he easily got my interest. At that time, he already fell in love head over heels to a senior at his school and who is also part of the said clan.

Freakincool09, missdollar andyoimjj31 were also members of the said clan and being my best friends especially freakincool09 who acts as our mother figure and knowing that I’m childish enough who doesn’t understand the nature of things, they’re very much worried about me and treats me as a fragile baby who will get injured if not treated well. They say that I easily fall in love and with the history of not having a boyfriend, the three also acts as the judges as to whether the guy is good enough for me. It’s really hard to gain their trust ^^

After that meeting, they said that the guy took interest on my and have fallen love at first sight because of being unique. He was really kind and everything and has a passion for drawing and by being a child; I enjoy seeing the little artworks that he’s creating for me. we started talking a lot and I gave him a little chance of courting me with the condition of waiting for 10 months. And if he does so, I will make him my boyfriend (only few of the boys are patient enough to do that and if he really loves me, he will do everything and thus, complete the task) he visits me at school and all that time its either my three friends are present or one of them are there to accompany me. I’m not that desperate enough to go alone by myself so I make sure that one of my friends are there for the sake of decency…

few months have passed and I tried very hard to make my family like him by telling stories and making him talk to my mom. Even my younger brothers have met him because they shared a passion for table tennis while my brother is fond of dancing in which he’s also good at… I was like “oh this is perfect!”

I even got into a fight with my three friends due t an issue involving him and yoimjj31. I was jealous and I tend to be possessive over stuffs but then I’ve planned for the reconciliation knowing that my friends are more precious than anything else. I’ve been with them for more than years now and I knew them better than anyone do so it would definitely be a waste if everything would only end up just because of a teeny tiny jealousy. It was our prom night and after reconciling with them, there goes the crushing news saying that this guy happens to give up and said it through text to freakincool09. I was sad and felt betrayed. If he really wants to stop the insanity, then he should have told me about it personally. I wanted t cry right then and there but I’m worried about my makeup. I was like a lifeless person on that night. I love parties but I don’t seem to have the energy for it. Good thing my friends were there to cheer me up and my big bro at school is also there to give advices.

Everything that I worked for and all the hopes *sigh* I was stupid. He was actually younger than me though we were in the same batch. Though I keep on saying that I love him, I then realized that it was only an infatuation. The reason why he gave up was because he had a girlfriend and he still love his senior better than he loves me. Don’t you think it was wrong? Courting three girls at the same time and seeing who will take the bait first? I’m mad and hate him for that. I could even file for a temporary Insanity due to love.

I am really really stupid and now that I finished high school, I vowed to only love onew. Just then, this guy popped up again asking for a second chance. But NO answer will definitely be a NO, NO and NO. I just don’t like it when he’s using his childhood friend who happens to be my close friend too.

I am not his little dog who will wait for him til he puts his attention to me and definitely not a toy to be played with. He might think that I would easily forget everything just because I’m a baby? Well what he think is wrong! I might forgive him but that’s all and nothing else.

If only I knew about black magic, he could be suffering right now. I swear that nobody would be greater than onew dubu… I will forever love him <3