for all my friends that is concerned

i am really sorry to have you all worry about me

i am just so lonely

because

my family doesn't want me to be friends with my best friend

they really dont like her

we were supposed to transfer to another school

but when my dad found out about it

my dad transfered me into another school far away from her and my dad deleted her number from my cellphone and told all of my friends not to give me 

her number

I am really sad

and now my best friend wont talk to me

i dont know

if she is mad to me

but what i do know is that i cant lose her

she has been by my side when my mom died

she was the one whom i would tell all my problems and worries

and if i lose her

i would be alone

and devastated

my brothers doesn't want me to be friends with her

they told me that it's for the better not to be friends with her

but i dont understand them

why does god wants me and my best friend to be apart from each other

and now here i am getting ready to study at a VERY different school

I dont even know anyone in my new school

and at noght i always cry

I always pray that someday my best friend and i will be friends again

I really miss her so much

she and i are like sisters

we would share everything

and we dont hide secrets from each other

losing her is just so hard for me

I dont have many friends because i am a shy type of person

well on the other part she is an out going kind of person

we are totally opposites of each other but we still get a long

i always remember when we promised each other that

"No matter what happens, we wont hate each other ever"

I hope she wont break that promise

my other friend told me that she has also been crying

and it hurts me to hear that

cause she never cries 

even when she is hurt she never cries

but hearing my friend tell me that she has been crying i am really worried

I dont know how i feel right now

I dont even know what's my purpose of living

I never really expected something like this to happened

I just dont want to lose my best friend

aside from my mom and her who else would i turn to if i have problemes

who else would understand me?

I just dont have anyone to share my feelings with..

in times like this.. when i am sad she would always be there to make me laugh

she would always tell me never to give up on life

she always tell me "life is short, then dont make it shorter"

she said that if I live my life full of sadness then my life would just pass by so fast 

that's why she always wants me to smile and be happy

but now how can i be happy

when I dont have someone who will care for me

my mom already left me

but she was there to fill my moms' empty spot

but now that  she is far away from me.. i really dont know

everynight I always cry

while praying

asking god many things..