You know that feeling you get when you miss someone?

Like a lot?

Well thats what I feel right now!

But like times 100

I miss my best friend who is dead

I miss my friends that are on another campus from me

I miss my ex boyfriend and our hugs

But most of all...I miss myself...

Why must I be like this?

I've changed and I don't like it!

But I feel that if I go back I'll just get hurt even more

I'm scared of what I could do to myself and the people I love!

No one seems to notice when I feel like this

They just think that I'm the bubbly 14 year old that acts like a 6 year old all the time....

I must be pretty good at acting then....