an;; I found this in the diary that when I was staying with my counselor for help. Thought I might share. I remember writing this when I was so stressed up with my things and my counselor told me to write it out. Kekekeee. He also knows that I like to write it indirectly. So here it is.

♥ it’s up to you which one is speaking the truth, it can be yes, no, both or none. it’s you whowill decide.

the day that everything was fine, you wish to have it back.
no, you still like your life now.
yes, you still wish to have that fine life back.

the day you met him was the day you felt what love is and thought that it's wonderful yet painful to bear the fast heartbeats.
no, everything is fine.
yes, it's painful.

the day you moved in with him is the day you think that it's the right choice.
no, it may be right.
yes, it might be.

the day when he started calling you ty and unwanted names, you will still smile.
no, you smiled.
yes, it hurts to hear it.

the day when things got worsen, with the ty names and the beating, you still stay there by his side, still loving him.
no, you really love him.
yes, you wish it will stop.

the day you started to have no feeling is the day that you have no live like a human sized doll.
no, you do have the feeling of love was what you said.
yes, you only have that.

the day when you like the feeling of pain and started to play with the knife is the last day you live.
no, you still like the feeling of love.
yes, you like the pain more when you cut both of your wrists and soaked yourself in the tub full with hot water.

no, this is what you want to say, the truth.
yes, you wish everything has not gone this way.

no, he still loves him even if he beats him.
yes, he will follow him.

the day when they realized that everything had gone wrong was the day people found the two died bodies in the apartment.
no, they know it's wrong.
yes, they know they love each other so much that they did it.

no, even if he beat him up he still love him.
yes, love him so much that he's willing to commit suicide to be with him and follow him.

no, he knows it won't solve anything.
yes, he doesn't care and he also cut both of his wrists and soaked himself in the tub that's still hot and red in colour with the other body occupying half of the space.

no, it's the end.
yes, it's the end of them living in this world.

end.

an;; How was it? Is it confusing?