So tonight, as I was taking a hot bath, I listen to the radio. They played some old songs from 2007 or 2008...and that's when I stopped and listen closely to those lyrics. In fact, I was recalling the last time I heard them. It was late at night and I was still up, laughing my off with my (then) best friend. It was something normal for us to stay up all night, laughing, listening to music, singing, talking, doing girl stuff.

Yeah, past tense my friends. And why's that? Well, now I have these two wonderful girls being always there for me...me and my best friend, we grew apart. I don't know who I should blame:the time, the school, her friends? Myself? But if I think a lil' bit about it, most of the time we passed by each other...We started as lil' kids that were still playing with the Barbie dolls, that were listening to the very same song again and again till we learn all the lyrics. We continued as high schoolers. And for a period of time, it was all good. Then it began...the big transformation. I changed only a bit. She changed a lot. I remained the same insecure girl, y in some way, knowing what the future should look like. I only opened a lil' bit more to the people around me. I smiled more often. She became popular. Of course, she kept her grades the same, but it was her who changed because of her so called 'friends'. Her classmates changed her. She pushed me away by making me feel bad. At first I clinged onto her. I didn't want to let go of her. But with time...with time I realized that there's no way you can hold on someone if that someone does no longer wants you in their life. And that's when it began the awkward SILENCE. We no longer call each other. We no longer lose track of time when we talk to each ot her. We no longer call each other when we have problems. She pushed me away and I left. I took another path.

Let me tell you, my friends, that this lil' Kat has always been way to naive when it comes to people. I tend to trust them really fast. And everytime I do that, I end up hurt. Like I did this time too...

I cried. I won't lie to you. I cried when I felt like I was being 'dumped' for her other friends. I cried when we fought on New Years' Eve. I cried a lot when I saw myself all alone on a dirty road, having no ones' hand to hold. But now...ehhhh, now I'm stronger. I can clearly see that it's in human nature to grow apart from someone you held dear. It's the human heart. And...well, is the personality crise. I will, maybe, over come it someday. But losing a friend is...a scar on my heart. She was my best friend, my kindred spirit....

And this is what we all call growing up?

Then, no thanks...

Kat's biggest mistake is trusting the wrong people. And she went through so many sufferings because of it...but even so, is there anyone who would take me in, be my friend, my new family?

You are beautiful.

Don't cry...

'Coz the silver moon is yet again up in the sky,

And she gonna cry.

And the stars will fall,

The whole Earth will crumble down.

Remember that no matter what

You're the most important person!

For me.

That's why, 

Please don't cry...

Kat's Out

P.S. Hope you liked my small poem *giggles* It was written on the spot and it doesn't look quite like a poem should look like, but still, I hope you liked it!