Another bad day for me... whenever I feel like my Cassie heart is starting to recover, I would read or hear something that would definitely crush it again.

I dunno if I should be glad that Min and Yunnie are quiet and without any controversies (but they are out of the spotlight -basically not doing anything) but at least I'm sure that they are safe somewhere unlike what happens with JYJ.

I feel sad that JYJ is again in the middle of a controversy and it sounds like they are being slowly cornered into a wall with nowhere to run. It's hard to go against two big companies and even though they are already stars in their own rights.. it will be hard.

I cannot point fingers at anyone simply because I do not know what happens with them behind close doors. As a fan (especially since I'm an international one), all I have are bits and pieces from the news and tweets and stuff from other Cassies. Sure it could be Avex's fault... it could be CJeS' fault... it may even be JYJ's fault (though probably not directly) but whatever I hear now are all just pure speculations and assumptions which is not reliable at all.

All I can do as a Cassiopeia is do what I can do best... keep on believing and hold on to the faith that one day all five Gods would be together again performing on one stage. Pray that all five boys would be strong and successfully pull through with all this issues.

I've heard somewhere that a fan's work is to "protect" their idol and I agree at some point but that would be as long as the idol is worth protecting and of course DBSK is worth all that and more. I have said this through my twitter but for me... Cassiopeias are the line connecting the five Gods, if we give up now and divide then we are defeating our purpose. Even with all this happening, the five of them will forever be DBSK/TVXQ/Tohoshinki...there is no JYJ and HoMin... there is only SuChunJaeMinYun...

I know that my rant is getting long but just to get this out of my chest... with all the created fanwars between HoMin and JYJ, don't you guys think that the ones mostly affected are the boys you are supposed to be "protecting"? We all may not be hearing constantly that they communicate but I believe in my heart that the years they spent with each other... the friendship and the brotherhood will not disappear even with everything that happened. Their love for each other will always be there even through possible little fights and disappointments.

 I am trying to be neutral because I do not have enough knowledge of what really happened to take sides and I know that I may get bashed because of all that I said and I don't really care. I do what I do as a Cassiopeia and just continue to hope for the best.