Now that I’ve finally stopped crying tears of utter joy, I think I’m calm enough to start writing this for you. I much rather wish it was to you and not for you, but I don’t know Korean and, no matter how hard I wish, you’ll probably never see this.

I just want to say that I missed you. I want to tell you how much, but I don’t think I can. I’m pretty sure there aren’t words in existence that can accurately describe how much I, how much ELF, missed you.

Honestly, even though I’ve been an unconscious ELF since 2008, I didn’t really know your name or your face or your personality until late 2010. And I regret that I didn’t know you since you debuted, but I’m still very grateful that I know you at all.

And while I may not have known your name or your face of your personality, I knew your voice. I knew that warm, throaty, soulful sound that came from your priceless vocal chords; I knew the blissful shivers they sent down my spine when I heard you hold a long note. And just hearing your voice was enough to make me want to know you more.

When people first look at you, they see an arrogant, cocky, immature young man with a little bit of talent. When I first saw you, I saw how, even though you seemed cocky and insane on the outside, you were kindhearted and oddly mature.

Some people say you aren’t very attractive, but I believe you more than live up to your name as Korea’s No. 1 Handsome Guy. I took one look at that eye-smile of yours and fell in love with you. Your strong arms, your broad shoulders, your pretty lips, your smiley eyes, your honest laugh, your flawless chest, your quirky aegyo; I fell in love with it all.

When I found out you were in the military, I’m pretty sure a part of me died. My 4th bias, whom I love so much, wouldn’t be back in my life for another year? I didn’t think I could do it.

I missed your smile, I missed your laugh, I missed your voice, I missed your interactions with the other members. I missed YOU.

But now you’re back and stronger than ever. You were always strong physically, but now I can see that you’ve become a man. You didn’t run away from certain mistakes you made in the past; You embraced them and went to the military to change yourself so that it wouldn't happen again.

You know they call you the appa of Super Junior, right? And that LeeTeuk is the umma? You have a lot of children, KangIn. Not just the 13 others of Super Junior, but you also have us, all of ELF. You have ME.

Do you know what the thing I missed most was? I think it would have to be the 1/15 of happiness you brought to Super Junior. It’s scary how much of a difference 1/15 can make. Seeing you back with your family made me realize just HOW much I missed YOU; It was so much more than I originally thought.

My dear handsome raccoon, you’re back and here to stay. Though you’ve become emotionally and physically stronger from the military, you haven’t changed right? You’re still the crazy, dorky, loud, cocky, lovable, adorable, talented KangIn we all know and love right?

Too bad you aren’t reading this right now. I’ve written lots of things like this before, but I never could quite get my feelings right. I always say that I want to tell you how much I missed you before I die, but I understand a few things now: You’ll most likely never see this, and I just CAN’T explain how much I missed you.

I wish there was a machine I could hook up to my heart and have it write down all the things I’m trying to say.

I think I’ll simply stick to this:

Saranghaeyo, Kim YoungWoon; Welcome back.

Your EverLasting Friend,

Dobu

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I feel like Dobu-unnie did a pretty good job at expressing how all ELFs feel right now. She didn't want me to put this up on AFF, but I did, because it's beautiful ^ ^

Original link: http://sapphire-blue-power-couple.tumblr.com/post/21189738085/dear-kim-youngwoon-dear-kangin-dear-appa