Really I have had enough, it's really hard not knowing how the to handle things now.

Honestly this is making me feel like crap, no clue on what's going to happen or what is going in the future for me.

My whole being is in all honesty being tested. No clue on where I belong in life right now...

For those who might know me or heard of me, from the outside it's looks like I am happy and nothing is wrong with me.

But if you really honestly knew me, you would cry on what really goes on in my mind. Well I will give you a gander peeking into my brain here are some of the thoughts:

No I don't really think I am good enough...

That really should have been me in that car when it crashed...

Why am I here in this life now? My heart seems to be just a game everyone loves to with..

.No please don't be back, I am not ready to see the person who killed me in just a few words leave me alone...

I am a coward...

This whole thing I can't keep this up, so tired of all the crap...

Strong, ha that's really funny I am not strong at all, honestly all of you know how weak I really am...

Just leave my heart isn't worth it...

I am also scared of everything...

No one knows what I keep in my heart...

Really I didn't know you hated me, sorry I didn't know really cause my life is already full of bull...

Perfect, no way in hell am I perfect...

Broken that's what I feel...

No one knows that there are voices in my head that tells me to die...

What's wrong with me?