first and foremost, i can't see this screen clearly because my eyes swollen. why ?

so this is how it goes..as the title shout  " IF YOU'RE IN MY SHOES...."

  I've been shortlisted for scholarship interview *yahoo....* yes! i'm happy. of course, even if it 's just an interview i'm happy. Why ?because up to almost 11, 000 people  ( 0-o ?) applying for this scholarship and i've been informed that only 300-400 that been shortlisted.

I thank God for this opportunity..

so, if i'm lucky enough i would be selected to study at the top renowned famous ..and what-so-ever you can put there..top private university..*like a drama* under the bachelor of chemical engineering.

the interview date would be on  17th and 18th april....which meant next week !!! *arghhhh*

                                  but suddenly,

i got another call for an interview which is

                     JAPANESE ASSOCIATE DEGREE !!

OMG, it's mean that if i'm lucky enough *again*...i would fly to pursue my study in JAPAN !! 

it just that i need to learn the japanese language first and fly ~~~~~~~~~~~

   @_@ sushi.....

  HOWEVER !!!

THE DATE OF THE INTERVIEW IS on 18th APRIL....!! the same date that i have the first interview !!

                           OH NO !!

i chose the second one ( because it's japan) but then.......this happens..

my mom : no! i don't allow you to go to japan!

me            : but...it's just an interview.. i will be here up to 2 years before i go to japan (if i'm good enough not to fail the japanese  

                    language exam)..*smile drop*

my mom   : no!  i  want you to study at local university

me           : but..but..but

my dad    : who will take care of you if you're studying in japan.?? none of us can fly to japan like those rich people can. what if 

                     our government have financial problem, ??you can't even get home! 

me            : but, it's my dream

my dad     : because, japan is somewhere near korea?!

me            : * is not only that..but, i just want to...i love to see those people keep on blogging about their life in japan* (i'm speechless here)

my mom  : stop it! even if somebody tell me that i'm stupid for not letting you go to japan, i will accept that. my answer and your dad's answer is : no !!

I KNOW MY PARENTS WANT THE BEST FOR ME. 

but i can't stop myself from crying. I don't know. it just that........i don't know..i can't even think right now! i also don't know what's going to happen next...

  ~ my eyes got swollen because i cried so hard...*    

                                           yours sincerely,

                            the girl in pain, the_sakura_island