So, today is Founder's Day at my school. Basically it's a day where everyone drinks from 10 am to ?pm and there are basically no rules. There are carnival rides, and some of the more popular restaurants set up booths. Live music... you know, the whole shabang.

Some of you may be wondering, "So why are here on AFF when all that fun stuff is going on outside?"

That's why this blog is called Annoyance.

I was doing so well earlier. I was taking it slow on my drinking, having fun with my friends, until I decide to return to my dorm to hang out with more of friends. And what do you think I see? My BEST FRIEND/ROOMMATE/PERSON WHO I TELL EVERYTHING TO is flirting and hanging all over the guy I really like.

I mean, he's a mutual friend of ours, I call him oppa cause he's Korean and older than me but we're still pretty close, and nothing has ever happened between us, but does that really give my roommate grounds to flirt with him like that?

I, who have been deemed forever alone, have been trying to gather the courage to talk to this boy in a more serious way since forever.

She, who claims she's forever alone and already has a boyfriend that she just got together with over spring break, knows I really like the guy and she still does this !

And HE'S ACCEPTING IT!!!

I know he's wasted as all hell and will basically just accept her advances but she's not drunk!

She, the last time I saw her this afternoon, was approaching the state of tipsy. She knows I like this guy so very much and she still does this and then she looks at me while she's all over him as if nothing's wrong. Just last night she was telling me about how it was going to happen someday and then now she's doing this!!! I'm so angry!!!!! I mean seriously! I've been fighting back tears of anger and frustration all day, and now as I write this I just get angrier! What kind of person does that?! A , that's what kind of person!!!

I hate being the "understanding roommate" half the time. I hate being that girl who puts aside her worries for her friend's and get basically nothing but annoyance in return. I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm sure I annoy her sometimes too, and I know I can at her a lot but I always make up for it. If I cause a problem, I'm always the one to try to take care of it first. If she causes it, I'm still the one who tries to take care of it first. She just storms out of the room like a brat! SHE IS A BRAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so glad I opted to get a single next year. I was all for rooming with her and getting a really good double since my room draw number was so good and hers was so ty, but I knew that if I lived with her again, World War III would break loose in short increments like it's been doing this entire year.

The only reason I haven't brought this up to her yet is because I can't just ruin everyone's fun today. I can't show my angry/depressed face to everyone when it's really just meant for one person. It'll ruin their day, or it will make them want to make me drink more so I can get drunk and "happy". If I drink angry, I'll just get more angry and we don't want that cause I'm slightly violent sober, what am I going to turn to drunk?

But that's not all, I'm now mad at myself cause I let it get to me. I told myself a long time ago that I shouldn't let things 0like this get to me since it's been going on since the beginning of time. The guy I like always go for my shorter, thinner (even if it's just a bit), more attractive, slightly more demure best friend. I told myself to give up on the guy so many times so why does this make me feel jealous and angry? I'm being a stupid as well.

That still doesn't excuse my OF HORRIBLE ROOMMATE!!!!!!!

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Yea... so... I feel slightly better. I've singled my roommate out as a beyond compare and I'm going to continue calling her that to until something is done about it. I've told myself I'm being stupid and I've cried and written my emotions out. The guy is just a trashed mess and he's not all that great anyway (oh how I lie to myself). And I'm going to go find my friends and have fun. Avoiding the two people who are pissing me off right now, of course.

I'll eat food, and play games, and listen to music. Find some friends I haven't seen in a while. Maybe play some volleyball while I'm at it (I've got a mean serve when I'm angry) because it always helped me calm down after a while. I'll have a good day. And if I don't, it! Next time I'll just go visit my aunt at her house while everyone's getting faced and pissing me off.

I'll comment if this works later. Probably won't but hey, worth a try right?