I have written this once already (it took me about two and a half hours on my ipod, and I am now on a computer), but it was deleted in the process. I cried for a few minutes because I couldn't get it back, but I'm rewriting it now. I think there are a lot of typos... I'm sorry. :C

So, um, I really hope that you do read this, author, because I've tried really hard to write it for you. >_< (I don't think it's as long as it used to be. :c)

I don't know how to start talking about this story. 

Um.

I guess I'll start with me, then. (Darn, I feel self-centered.) I'm usually not the type to read a story like this, honestly, because I usually read fanfiction (as long as it's up to certain writing standards). But yesterday, I was looking for a good story to read, and so I decided to look through the past featureds, to see if they ever featured anything good. (They have a couple times, but it doesn't happen very often.) So, in the process of doing that, I ran across this story. I was a little intrigued by it (I am partly Kyuhyun-biased) and so I decided that, despite it not being my normal type of reading, I would read it. I was plenty aware that it probably wouldn't be cheerful, either, not helping my "not my type of story" thing. 

So, I began to read. For the first maybe ten chapters or so, I honeslty wasn't all that into this story. But then, the characters decided to grab me and pull me in and screw with my emotions, and I was completely lost from there on out.

I read all 142 chapters in one go, and cried on and off for about four or five hours while doing so. At least three of those hours, I was crying the whole time. (I had a really bad headache after I was done reading your story...)

Okay, okay. So... 

This story is /awesome/. I mean, like... /really/ awesome. It's well-oaced and completely realistic, and it made me cry /so/ much. You do not /understand/ how much I cried, reading this. I just, I cant even. ;w; Call me emotional, I don't care, I am. >w<;; But its' hard to make me cry over  a fanfiction, so great job. :'D

Okay, so, before I begin the part of this that will take up most of this post, I should probably tell you that I'm a teenager, and although I'm not /that/ close to the age that Kyuhyun is in this story, I'm pretty close, and I identified with him really well, and understood his actions so much. And also, as a teen myself, I was just really amazed at how strong he is to get through all of this the way he did. It's just so amazing to me that he can do all this...

Anyway.

Because, to me, it seems like this story is really character-driven, I'm going to go over each character and say what I felt about them, and what I thought and stuff. Um, so please bear with me! I'm trying to remember what I wrote before. (Also, I should warn you that I use the phrase "just broke my heart" or "broke my heart" or something similar so many times that it should probably be illegal. Haha >w<)

~Heechul~
Aside from being Kyuhyun biased, I am also Heechul biased. (Thus, I'm going to write a lot about him >w<) But in this story... he was really mean. ;w; He was the last person to start warming up to Kyuhyun, and he even told Kyu that he would be better off dead, right before the accident, and caused Kyu to have that little breakdown with the bathroom. I'm pretty sure that he didn't /entirely/ mean what he said, and was overreacting, but I'm not going to say that he didn't hate Kyu, because I'm absolutely sure that he did. Heechul was so unforgiving and mean to Kyu throughout the entirety of the story, and although Hannie told Kyu that Chullie was actually a really good friend and nice person, Kyu didn't really believe it, and I don't blame him. Chul was one of the people who were meanest to him, after all. But throughout the story, I also understood Chul and the rest of Suju's point of view, and I just was so conflicted the whole time. :c (Your story does this to me Dx) 
But when Kyu gets in his accident, Heechul realizes a lot of the things that he said and did and feels really bad for him, and I get that. He didn't like Kyuhyun, but he's really not that horrible of a person to be happy that Kyu almost died. And then, also, when he talked about the dream he had that was the same as Kyu's, about him dying, and he freaked out.... Of course, Kyu freaks out when Heehul visits him, and I don't blame him for kicking Heechul out, but Heechul is patient, and wants a chance. (And when that intern talked about when he saw Heechul in the church, I just died. ;w;) And Heechul continues to be kind to Kyu, because Heechul can understand some of Kyu's feelings about being in the hospital while Suju is continuing promotions, and some other stufff... and I was just so happy that Kyuhyun found it in his heart to forgive Chullie some. >w< That must have taken so much effort, but I was so happy. >w< I hope that Heechul and Kyu can become less antagonistic with each other, so that we can see more of nice!Heechul. I'd really like to see that. :3

~Kangin~
Ah, Kangin. He was the one that beat Kyuhyun until he bled, but he was also one of the funniest characters. ._. I dunno what to think about him, honestly. He seems to like confusing Kyu, too, once he's warmed up to the maknae. He keeps doing and saying weird things to confuse Kyu, and it confuses me too. >w<;; 
It seems to me that Kangin was kind of fickle: did it really only take a vacuum cleaner and some spam to warm him up towards Kyu? I don't honeslty think so, but that's what it seemed like to me. Haha xD I'd like to know his other reasons, though, and Kangin's thought process, 'cause I don't really understand him too  much. I'm glad that he did feel bad for making Kyu bleed, though. Even if you hate someone, that's really not the way to go about that... And also, I'm glad that they were kind of hoping Kyu would forgive them for that, like whoever-it-was said. (Was it Wookie? Or Sungmin? .-. I dont' remember). 
I thought his birthday/anniversary trick was mean, though, considering Kyu's experiences with the beatings. :c

~Shindong, Kibum~
Honestly, I can't say much about them, since Shindong is like, never mentioned, and I can't remember what little is said about Kibum, other than the fact that he's pretty okay with Kyu, I think...

~Siwon~
The first time I realized that he was there was when he offered to share his closet with Kyu (which was really sweet. :3) And then I forgot about him until later, when the closet came up again. >_<;; But he made me laugh with his churchiness.. the whole "Did you go to church?" thing cracked me up. xD Ah, Wonnie, I wub you. :3

~Yesung~
Yesung's "I can't sleep alone" thing is just too cute. :3 Also, his and Kyu's awkwardness is really cute as well. ^^ It was sweet how he gave Kyuhyun ice after the beating, when he was giving up his own for Kyu. At that point, I'm pretty sure that he didn't like Kyu too well, but he gave that up anyway, and aww, that was just really nice of him. ^w^ HIs philtrum-touching makes me laugh, especially with Kyu's 'wtf' reaction to it. xD

~Sungmin~
Ahh, Sungminnie is seriously such a great friend. :D He is so nice and kind to Kyu throughout the story, and he's one of the first ones to open up to Kyu and be kind to him as well (along with Ryeowook.). He puts up with Kyu's outbursts, and is just always there and very nice to him the whole time, and aww. I really want a friend like Sungminnie. When he first appeared in the story, being all mad and angry about having to share his room with Kyu, I was like 'D:' because I really didn't want Sungmin to dislike Kyuhyun. But later, once he started being nicer to Kyu, I was really really happy. :3 

~Ryeowook~
I know I was just gushing about Sungmin's good-friend-ness, but... Ryeowook was even more so, honestly. Even before Kyu was put in Suju, he was nice to him, giving him advice and stuff. :3 He actively tried to get Kyu to open up to him (although it didn't necessarily work, the first few times he tried.) Once Kyu does, Wookie is really kind to him and puts up with all his random outbursts and crying and stuff... They watch dramas together, and it's just so sweet. :3 And when Kyu runs away and gets drunk that one time, Wookie is the one that takes care of him afterwards, and helps him get his stuff and helps him deal with all of that, and awwwwwwwww. And it broke my heart so much, Wookie's argument with Kyu right before the accident, and how Kyu was so worried about Wookie butnever came to see him... And how Wookie blamed himself for the accident and how Kyu was injured, and I just cried and cried and cried because of that, and it was so saddddddd. :c I'm so glad Kyu had Wookie as a friend. :3

~Eunhyuk~
He hit Kyuhyun with /both/ hands! DX That's just mean.
He was such a nice dance teacher though, helping Kyu with his dance and his expressions and his stage presence and all that. It was cute how he made fun of Kyu's awkward dance, too. xD And how he was the first person to see Kyu after the accident... and how he was so worried... ahh, it just killed me, and I think my heart died a little bit too. :c

~Hankyung~ 
He was sooooooo cuteeeeeeeee. :'3 How he was so excited to teach Kyuhyun Mandarin, and got a little ahead of himself... And how he was so happy that would spend Christmas with him, and how he stood up for Chullie and said how he was a really good friend. :'3 Awwwwwwwwwww, Hannie, you're killing me. >w<

~Donghae~
This boy broke my heart so much. ;w; I wanna give him a hug. First, he did warm up to Kyu, although it took him a bit longer than some of the others, and then how he was so excited that Kyu would go with him to Mokpo was really cute. I'm super glad that Kyu told Hae that  he was planning on leaving the team, since I think it was Hae's angry lecture that really kept him with Super Junior. Hae's words helped Kyu to understand, and I'm really really so glad. :'3
When Donghae lost his father, I lost it too, and had to stop reading for a while so I could calm down enough to see the words on my screen. DX I felt so horrible for the poor boy, and it killed me so much, especially at the funeral, the way he was blankly greeting everyone... and how he had to be /filmed/ at his father's funeral. Can't the press just leave him alone for that little bit of time? So that he can grieve by himself? Of course they can't... 
And on that topic, I /hated/ it how the members were instructed not to cry at the funeral because it would ruin their makeup. How horrible is that? Because they had to keep up appearances, they weren't even allowed to cry on an occasion like that... Argh, I want to murder the cameras. DX I cried so bad during that part. I just wanted to fly to Korea, and fly back in time, and break those cameras. D<

~Donghae's dad~
This man. Ohmygosh, this man. I'm going to say a bit about him, although his actual character didn't show up in the story much.
This man reminded me of one of my family members who passed away, so I could barely read anything involving him without sobbing my eyes out. He was so warm and kind, and he called all of his son's friends his sons, and he just accepted them like that. He was such a great dad, in the story and also in real life. (Rest in peace. <3) And he just, agh, he just made me cry so much. He was so warm and kind, and... I'm going to stop talking now beforeI say something stupid, but... Ah, I cried so much for him.

~Leeteuk~
This guy.... Ah. I was really  sad that Leeteuk was one of the meanest ones to him, because he always seems to be so kind, but I understand his viewpoint, and it really wouldn't make sense if he, the one with the most seniority, was kind to Kyu throughout the story. So I was sad, but it seemed realistic to me, and I accepted it. 
I was super glad that he didn't let Kyuhyun starve himself. Even if he hated Kyu, and even if he didn't want Kyu there, I'm so glad that he's so kind as to help Kyu, talk to Kyu, and help nurse Kyu back to health. I'm really, /really/ glad that he could do that, and I admire him so much for that. That was great. >_< (By the way, speaking of that, I /really/ want to see Leeteuk's POV of ch. 53. >_<;; Like really really.) And after that, he started being a bit more sympathetic towards Kyu.
Now, he didn't necessarily accept Kyu right there and then, after that talk, and that was fine, because if he had, I would be weirded out. I'm really glad that he didn't, because that would seem really unrealistic to me. (Good job, author! :D) But he did start being more sympathetic, and helping him, like when Heechul was kicking him, or like when Teukie held Kyu after he was freaking out about being beaten. I'm really, really glad. :'3 And eventually, Teukie grew to accept him, and started becoming his kind self around Kyu, and I was super happy. :3 
And ohmygosh, I just died inside at the hospital, when Leeteuk called him 'our lovely little maknae'. I actually started rolling around on my bed and kicking my legs like a crazy person. It was so sweet ^w^

~Manager hyung / Seunghwan~
The absence of his name for most of the story made me realize just how little Kyu actually did know about him, and that makes me really sad, considering his place in Kyu's life.
This guy is probably one of the most realistic characters in this story. He tried so hard for Kyu and for the others, and it's really sweet. He really was like a father figure for Kyu as well, what with helping him get through his new life and helping him with his schoolwork and all... 
Manager hyung was really good at knowing when something was wrong, or when Kyuhyun was sad or something. Yet he was also quite strict with things and didn't hold back on his punishments and stuff like that. He knew what he was doing, and I'm glad. 
I'm really glad that Kyuhyun could talk to him, but I cried right along with Kyu at the times when manager hyung lost Kyu's trust. ;w; I felt so bad for the both of them.
And oh god, manager hyung's drunken confession just killed me so bad. How much he really cared about Kyu is so.... just, really, just like he was his own kid. It's so sweet, and I just cried and cried and cried at that part. :c I felt horrible for him, poor guy. 
And then when he had the talk with his teacher about Kyuhyun when he thought that Kyuhyun couldn't hear, it was just so.... awwwww. :'3
Also, yes, I'm kinda mad that he had to go manage for SNSD because of money, but I guess it's really okay. As much as my romantic notions would like to think that manager hyung should have stayed there with Kyu and Suju, when his apartment was revealed I just knew that he /had/ to, and it had probably made him really sad to switch to SNSD, and then I cried a little bit. (I cry a /lot/, did you notice? >w<) I just felt so horribly bad. And then when he gave Kyuhyun the bed, and left that note, and gave Kyu that laptop.... ohmygosh, he just killed me everytime. :c 
Then, at the hospital, when his girlfriend/fiancee (is it two e's for the girl? or for the boy?) broke up with him, I just cried for him, again. Because really. I can understand her reasons, at least to a certain extent, but could she really have picked a worse time to break up with him? And in front of other people? Really? Girl, you make me mad. D< Anyway, I'm glad that Kyu and manager hyung got to be friends again. :3

~Jonghyun~
Aww. So cute. :3 He's so cute, and so energetic! And when he was beating his junior, I was so disappointed along with Kyu, too. Like, 'why, Jjong?' But when we found out why he did it, I was just so conflicted because, aww, it's so cute he stood up for Kyu, but he didn't need to do that.... I'm really glad that Kyu waas able to forgive Jjongie. :3 And I really liked how he described SHINee's dorm, and how there was the vague mention of Key. (*Key biased*) xD <3 I'm glad that SHINee is fair to their juniors, or Minnie would have had a hard time. :c

~the intern~
No name. :c
He's so kind to be helping his patient like that. He's helping his patient get better, sure, but he's also being so kind to Kyu and talking to him and stuff that I really, really, liked him. I was sad when he lost Kyu's trust, but I'm glad he's doing his best to help build the trust back up again. :3 Good job, dude! I like you. :3

~Kyuhyun~
Oh goodness, I was putting this off as long as I could... but here we go.
Kyuhyun is so... human. He's just a teenage boy, going through way more than a teenage boy hoenstly should have to. Aside from his studies to get into a good college, he also has to worry about his reputation, songs, dancing, hours of practice, homework, /beatings/, and making everyone happy. Free time? What's that? I admire him so much, because he's so strong. Even though it seems like he's being bratty and breaking down under the pressure and stuff like that, I know that I could never take what he went through in this story with as much strength and perseverance as he did. He's amazing in that regard. :3
He's just so realistic and human, though: He makes mistakes, he loses his tempe, he cries, he does stupid things. I felt so much for him throughout this entire story (this is in no small part due to your writing :3) and I just felt so bad for him the whoel time, while also understanding his enemies' viewpoints. This kid mixed me up inside! D: (I have no right to call him a kid; even in this time period, he's quit e a bit older than me. xD;;) 
I'm so glad that he never fell to the pressure and hurt Jonghyun, or someone similar. I'm so glad that he didn't. I'm so amazingly happy, you don't even know. :D
Anyway, anyway. When he was first introduced to me, I was really shocked that he just followed his seniors' orders like that. Then, I realized that /that/ at least was probably a cultural difference in this case. So I followed him along, and when he came to the realization that none of his Super Junior sunbaes liked him, I honestly would have cried in his place. I'm so amazed that he didn't, really. 
And then, to keep up with his studies like that, with his teacher, that was really quite amazing to me as well. Throughout the story, Kyu is totally devoted to his studies, and determined to get into a good school. I cried for him when he didn't get into the top 20 on his exams: I totally understand that. ;w; It makes you feel crappy when your grades aren't as good as they could be, especially in cases where you really studied hard to try and get there. It's just like, 'it's not faiiiiir!' and then you want to whine and complain like a little baby. (Or maybe that's just me. I think that's probably just me. >_>)
Anyway, though. I'm really glad he let Donghae's words get through to him and didn't quit, because if he'd quit, that would have rendered all the work he'd done null. That would have been a silly thing to do, Kyuhyun! (Although I totally would have felt the same in his place. :c *hypocrite*) 
And coming up to the accident... but first we will talk about Heechul, 'cause I'm trying to put off talking abotu the accident as much as I can. :c
Heechul told him he would be better off dead. That broke my heart. That was another time when I had to stop reading so I could calm down. Kyuhyun was trying really hard to please Chul and his other sunbaes, and then just because of something like na unclean bathroom, he's told he'd be better off dead? That his life's not even worth that much? Oh god, I cried so much then. And then, when the accident happened... I bet he wondered, is Heechul happy now? ;w; Ohmygosh, seriously... 
Ah, the accident. 
That dream. ;w; That dream, that dream, that dream. I'm glad he realized it, that it was worth more. And also, when he made his decision over the surgery, he realized just how much he cared abotu the things that he was doing in his life, and the people that were there, and.... ;w;
I'm glad Kyu can forgve people. I know he has trust issues, and issues with opening up, but I'm glad he can forgive people, like he forgave manager hyung and sort of forgave Heechul, and forgave his other hyungs for being mean to him. That just makes him so much more amazing from my point of view, that I can't even.... ;w;

Anyway.

Talking about the story as a whole, it was really well-paced and really awesome, and really, really, /really/ realistic. I just can't even begin to describe how emotional this made me, nevermind the fact that it was based off of real things. ;w; 

Your writing is great. :D Sure, someone who isn't a good writer could've taken this and written it, but I honestly wouldn't have cared, and I probably wouldn't have cried. You're just great at expressing Kyu's, and, through Kyu, the other characters' emotions. >w< That's why I cried so much reading this. It was just so... so... ahhhh, I don't know what to say.

I never really noticed any spelling/grammar errors. That pays homage to your story-writing as well; I didn't even care about thelittle things so much. :'D

Anyway, if you actually do read this, thank you so much for actually having read the (ridiculously long) rantings of a fourteen-year-old. I tried really hard to write it. ;w; Some of it may sound weird 'cause I'm talking about actual people, but the things I'm saying are int he conbtext of what I just read, and so... pleas remember that >w< I'm sorry if I don't make sense. I'm really sleepy. ;w; So yeah, if you read it, thankyouthankyouthankyouthankyou~ <3 I loved this story :D And I can't wait for more. <3 

Anyhoo. 

Byeeee. :3