Ok...So...

It is April 29 and I have finally slept over the fact that i was inches away from 2AM.

And now i realize....WHY THE F**K DID I DO IT?

 I mean....SERIOUSLY?

Me telling Lee Changmin of 2AM that i loved him. Ok...It's not like the first time i have screamed at an idol my profession of undying love. What freaked me out was the way i told it to him.

I'm kind of an old school Filipina girl when it comes to relationships. I have never confessed to a guy I loved him. Seriously. I had 2 boyfriends already and I always wait that they are the ones to confess first. Secondly..The way i told him it loved him was really creepy. Seriously! Creepy!!!

Ugh.

I wasn't supposed to say that I loved him. I was supposed to say "Changmin you are really hot" or something in Filipino. AAARGH!!!

My stupid mouth always preceeds my brain. I always speak before i think. Damn! I learned my lesson now though.

BTW...IS anyone reading this going to the grand showcase in EASTWOOD on April 30? I want to go but i have no one to go with. Even If Eastwood is super far from my place I'm willing to go. I just don't wanna be lonely. lol.

Fangirling alone is sad!!

Anyways. Enough! No use crying over spilled milk. I'm sure I wasn't the only fan that creeped them out. Lol.

BTW...The meet and greet yesterday was after my work (Actually i left work early to go there. lol) so i wasn't able to change my outfit. Because my bag was so full alread! I had my camera with long lense and digi cams and my make-up bad and huge long wallet that is just full of receipts and coins (but i love it cause it's Shinee's color) anyways. I was wearing my office clothes. But it was really cute and revealing y clothes. You see..I lost quite a few kgs over the past months so when i took a blouse which i reserved for special occasion (which fitted me perfectly before) I didn't notice that if i lean a certain way or if i jump or move abruptly, people see my bra. AAARGH!! I was so pissed! I noticed only when i was on the bus otw to work. ARgh!

I wonder if they saw my bra as i waved at them. They were face level with my chest too. hahaha. I wish i wore a prettier bra instead of a plain white one. I wish i was wearing a lacy one or something. Argh!