I want to tell you how much I like you. Not love, but like. Psychologists may said crushes only lasts for four months and if it's more than that, it is love, but I will only say I like you.

We may don't have much interactions for the past seven years, but I really like you. When I first had a conversation with you, I remember it was really awkward, considering at that time only both of us are there while the others are inside your house and we don't know each other that well. But that awkward moment is the best moment in my entire life.

I'm not bragging or anything but when we saw each other at school, I would always looked at you secretly and sometimes I would caught you looking at me. I acted like I didn't care but actually I do. It made me happy that you actually remembered me.

I still remember that day when I was alone at the school corridor. I thought I was alone, that's why I stand there watching every students getting picked by their parents until the school compound is empty. To be honest, I was standing there because I wanted to see you walking home. I don't care if I can only see your back, but seeing you is enough already.

I was shocked when I saw you and your friend at the end of the corridor, by the staircase looking at me. I was flustered. I want to look away but I can't. And then, your cousin/my neighbour came running towards me with a big grin on her face. Trying to hide my feelings for you, I quickly looked away but I can't helped but noticed you were still standing there. And that was when your cousin said, "Wan kirim salam dengan kakak."

That one sentence made me realize that maybe you liked me too. I almost ended up screaming when I heard her saying that to me. I've been waiting for you to said that and you did. You have no idea how much that affected me. I can only looked at you again and smiled eventhough what I wanted to do was run to you and hugged you. But with your cousin and friend standing there, looking at me, I can't. And since my mom is an important person in the school, that just added another reason why I can't.

During Sports Day, I remember I was hanging out with your other cousin, and I can't helped but noticed you kept on looking at me. I feel embarrassed, to be honest. I was still shy. After that day at the school corridor, you never said anything to me again, like you never know me existed. I was quite sad so I was really, really shocked when your cousin suddenly mentioned that you asked for my number. I was confused if I should give it to you or not. What if you were only doing a prank to me? What if you don't like me like the way I like you? At the end, I didn't give it to you. I'm sorry.

And now, seven years have passed but this feelings for you is still here. I missed you. I want to see you again. I want to talk to you again. The last time I saw you was last year and the last time I talked to you was during at your house and that was four years ago. I don't know if you still like me or not but I still like you.

I like you, Wan. I really do. I hope we can meet each other again in the future.

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~> I feel like a stalker in paragrapgh three and four. I swear I'm not! XD

~> I was at his house for his sister's birthday. My neighbour, their cousin, invited me so I just came along. At first I didn't know she was his sister. If I knew, I would not go and just sit at home. XD

~> "Wan kirim salam dengan kakak." This sentence is like you're saying hello to your close friend or someone you haven't met in a long time. But here in my country, this way of saying hello means two things. One, you missed your friend, two, someone likes you. So I was confused, actually. XD

~> I really wish I can meet him.