I don't really know if this is because of reading too much angst fanfics or listening to too much sad love songs... but now I'm 16 and I'm starting to be scared if what if I won't have a girlfriend... I'm trying to go out and meet people but there aren't people whom I like. goodness, I'm not picky.. I'm a people person. But yeah, I'm afraid that I would be forty and still be a bachelor... I'd like someone who'll be there for me, listen to my nonsense blabbing, play online games with me, someone who'll stand up for me, someone who'll accept me despite all the weirdness, the lack of good looks and the cranky attitude. I can't help to be envious of my friends who always have their girlfriends that take care of me. Times would come when I would look in the mirror and tell myself if am I really ugly or is it how weird my gestures and acts are?

I'm really weird... and if i try to act the manly, the cool, or the charming guy then I would turn out to be stiff. Hahaha... Cupid, hit me with you arrows now will you? xDD

hahaha I just needed to get this out of my chest!