It hurts the most.

Umma....

Why must you say that to me?

So what if I'm fat?

Am I not your daughter anymore?

So what if I don't seem good enough?

Do you regret giving birth to me?

Why can't you praise me for what I did good, instead of judging me for what I lack in?

 

When I can play piano covers without looking at the scores, why can't you say that I'm talented?

 

When I got distinctions and A's for my exams, why can't you say I did much better than you expected?

 

Why must you only scold me for being fat and force me to slim down?

 

Why must you compare me with your friends' kids?

They are not your child, umma....

 

I am....

I'm your daughter, umma.

Can't you just try to accept me as who I am?

 

You said that if I remain fat, then I will never have a boyfriend.

 

But have you ever asked me if I needed one?

 

Do you know what I love most?

 

Do you know why I'm always hiding in my room, facing my laptop screen rather than your face?

 

Because of you, umma. My appearance would only make you angry. 

 

You always judged me for my appearance. You said that others would judge me if I enter the society...

 

But do you know... you were the first one to judge me...

 

I don't dislike you, umma.

 

I love you for my entire life.

That's why it hurts the most.

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Jun_Hee #1
This happened to me too. My mother likes to compare me with my friend.Because she usually gets an A and not me.
forever2323 #2
unnie! its alright if youre chubby!:D just to let you know other people still love you too!:D i think youre mum meant well, if she doesnt...then we r here! your readers!^^i believe tht one day a guy just right for you wld come, a person who loves you for hu u r..not ur appearance!:) just wait!:)cheer up unnie! HWAITING!oh..n update on ur fanfic too!:)
FF_LoVer #3
Not everybody were "created" perfect..
Know what??
I could guarantee you that I am 99.9% much more uglier than you...
Everybody mocks me for my appearance..
YES!
I AM FAT!
SO?
They all laugh at me because I'm different,
but do you know something??
Sometimes, we the fatty just have to laugh at them because they're all the same...
We might didn't know each other...
You also may or may not read my comments..
But there's something that I would like to tell you..
No one can make you feel inferior without your consent,
Don't let your mother comments let you down...
because from THE 3rd POV,
We all know that your mother do "LOVE" you...

HIMNAE, HWAITING!!~
^^
-P/S: SORRY 4 my English!!~ it !
iinfinite97 #4
Even if the society turn its back against you, like what your umma say to you, know that you still have our support, and most importantly our love. We'll still be here to accompany you the hard and whatnots in life. We're not strangers, we're one at heart, unnie :) and no worries, I'm not physically perfect either, none of us is perfect, I think. Smile,unnie, because it makes a girl the prettiest :)
--minyoungiie #5
don;t b sad...u r what u r..~~b confident,onnie figthing! ^^
lethargic #6
I know mothers are always like this, begging us to do things as what they want. They just don't know how burden their children's are. Actually if I'm in your place, I might tell to her that, "Do you think I want myself to be fat? Being forever alone with no boyfriend for the rest of my life? No. I don't want to be fat and be a loner for the rest of my life. I want to be a simple girl who have someone to accompany me for my entire life. I want a happy life too. But this is just too stressful for me, being burden by a lot of things. Anyhow, I just want people to love me as for who I am, not being the prettiest or the iest. I want them to love me not by my physical appearance, but here inside. And about that child of your friend, I know she's beautiful. But do you think by looking at her looks, she has a perfect happy life? No mom. Everyone has their own happiness and sadness."

Anyhow unnie, cheer up ;)
storieGiRL #7
hey unnie is here for you...i go through the same thing, everyday hearing the same lecture. i've been going throught that 6 years, being called fat, and not being able to have a boyfriend by umma and appa, I know saying this won't help much, but i want you to know...don't take it to heart, your beautiful the way you are no matter what people say.You will become stronger each day to know how to deal with such hurtful words.i know i certainly did. =) always keep your head up, don't show your tears to anyone, even if you do, let them know that you are not afraid, and not ashame of who you are and how you look like. And see like you said, you play piano. Thats a beautiful gift to have.Talents are better gifts to have then looks =) =D
jenli98 #8
aaawww unnie don feel that way..
wateva ppl say don change jus bcuz sum ppl sed ur diff imean in my place where i live lots of ppl talk behind my back buh i dont give a cuz its ur life..
jus stay strong..
i kno it even hurts wen mum says it.. mah mum always does that to meh buh i jus keep it to mah self jus don cry nd b brave.
DamiIsLove #9
i even cried when read it T_T
Baby! we love you for who you are inside!!! ><
cheer up and smile for your fans ^^
misspinkinpink #10
Aww, don't worry. About the calling you fat thing, she's really doing it for your sake. My mum always does that to my sister, but whenever my sis isn't around, she told me that she really can't stand it when other people call her fat that is why she does that to my sister, hoping that my sister will realise and actually start dieting.
AND about the grades, you need not worry at all. It's the same for everyone I can say. Parents will NEVER be satisfied with their children's grade. I thought I was the only one going through it but when I told my friends, they say their parents do the same things too
So, cheer up unnie! ^^
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