my heart hurts alot

Hey guys chocoteddy here, i seriously need to express myself and hope u guys cheer me up :) here's my problem:- my bestfriend freak out about my greds. yeah i did really bad and i wasn't really the mood to hear about my greds. she told me wat i got. I was seriously piss off. i hate it when people looked at my face and gave me the looked. Yeah i know, u guys will be "wat the heck's wrong with u. she cares for u?!" I know but i just hated people pity me. guess wat she's alot smarter than me. I envy her smart mind. she always thought of herself stupid. The next day, we were buying food from this shop. My little sis told her problem to my bff. Well u see,my sis is popular with guys and this told tell fasle rumor about my sis. yes i was piss off but i can't get angry cause am kinda afraid i'll do something violant to her like killing her. so my bff got really piss off and told my sis and me tht we should told her in the first place. Ok i was really ok with tht but the one tht makes me angry she said were easily to bully! I WAS LIKE WAT THE HELL MAN?!. So should i really be angry or not? I don't know wat to feel now? I feel like shutting down my emotions. i feel like it's better for me since every judge me too easily. Seriously everyone around me keep on pissing me off whenever i tried to feel happu. i guess it's better for me to without emotins.so can u cheer me up some how?

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banasoul #1 Mar 26, 2012 06:39:06

Those people are rubbish...she should not be your bestfriend

SDW213 #2 Mar 25, 2012 08:20:30

Nevermind about that,people minds these day is flying away from studying but focus on entertainment,old people says your future is still bright and never give up.I'm easy to be bullied too.I used to be younger in my class, example I'm 9 and my classmates were 12,i went to school very early.Those people always judge me by the age and make me like their slave.Once i was being rude to them.I just called grandparents and they become speechless.

keiliekk #3 Mar 24, 2012 03:42:18

I've felt that feeling too when every single thing makes you just so angry. I don't have any good advice like the past commenters, but what helps me is to scream into my pillow and throw it around my room- you know, to get the anger out on nonliving things, not people. After that I kind of read a book or go online to calm myself. It's a good way to me-at least, it works for me. I'm not sure about you, though. Good luck in finding your own way to let your anger out harmlessly

helloiloveys #4 Mar 23, 2012 13:27:00

I don't really get what you say.. But i know most people here in Singapore or maybe it's just my friends. They worry when you get bad grades and get angry when you do better than them so idk what to tell you.

Saying your sister is easy to bully is just an expression and i don't get why you're pissed over that. I always say that to my friends when we're joking around. I'll be like "you're too easy to bully! you have to learn how to stand up for yourself!!".. So there's a possibility your friend might be joking too?

Maybe the anger blinded you and you just feel before thinking since you're already pissed and everything people does, even small things like this, gets you even angrier. The first thing you should do is to calm yourself down.

When you get bad grades, work harder next time to get better grades. It might be caused be insufficient studying. I'm not saying you didn't study. But you may very well be studying in the wrong way. Google the smart way for studying cos it's really a lot for me to tell you how. Some people learn better by pure memorisation, some people do well by practising while some others need to only pay A LOT of attention during lesson to do well.

You can either ask for help from friends/teachers or initiate to your parents and tell them you wanna enrol for tuition or something. NO OFFENCE FOR WHATEVER I SAID UP THERE. SORRY!! :( Good luck dear.. Hope you feel better! FIGHTING!!! \^o^/

SeaTurtle #5 Mar 23, 2012 08:48:28

I'm feeling the exact same thing.
And my bffs are also those good-grades-forever-and-always type. , they got mad at me (literally) for getting bad grades. Sayin' I didn't try enough...etc. etc. etc.
I'm mad too at first, totally.
But then I think again and how I hate they way they treat me like that. So I want to change that. You know, make your friend's 'pity treatment' as a motivation to make her stop giving you the pity look.
In my case, I work harder. I want so baaad to prove them that they're wrong. And it kind of works. LOLs.

Then again people have their own ways. I'm just sharing mine.
I hope you'll find the light to this problem of yours soon.
^^

Grey_Storm #6 Mar 23, 2012 08:32:08

I don't kno...
U remind me of myself..
Just like what I wrote in my diary..

But seriously, don't give a to it,..
Coz, if I were in ur shoes, i'll rather walk away or just let my temp control.

Haha
If I do that, a dead body will be in front of me later replaced with iron bars!!

Anyway, what u did now... Telling what u feel..
Its good
Atleast there are people listening to u..

U'll know someone has heard ur feeling and it'll calm u..

Anyway..
If I were u and if I had the chance to pause time..
That girl would seriously regret the whole thing! :D

Now cheer up!

Think what u could have done to her to make her regret..

Gosh! I'm such a bad adviser! *kicks myself*
Lol