Okay, compared to your lives. My life is seriously nothing, boring and stuff. You have all the drama and i can't even compare but i really need to let this out so ignore me yeah?

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Okay seriously, i have a thing problem. I just can't seem to make friends.

Not literally. I can make friends in a way but the problem is i can't ever maintain a relationship.

Everthing starts out normal right... I make a friend and we become closer and closer until we become extremely close friends and every single time this happens they end up ditching me within 2 years for someone else, someone better than me.

Okay it's sounding like a love story but i swear. This has entirely nothing to do with guys - I go to an all girls school.

So right now, I have had around 5 bestfriend, each ditched me and i slowly made a next bestfriend. Around the 3rd bestfriend that dumped me i became more aware of this and swore that i would find better people and not give away the tittle of a bestfriend so easily. So i became like that, i was scared of talking to people because i didn't want a friend that could hurt me again so i did't have much friends.

I meet someone else and after two years of being friends with her i gave her the tittle of a bestfriend. I was so stupid, i must've gave her that tittle to easily and way to fast aye? Yeah, cuz she ditched me. Not totally yet but i know she will... She had told my other friend about wanting to leave this group to another group... I seriously don't know why she hasn't left. She's spending half the week with her other friends and another half with us. Though it's obvious she isn't enjoying her time around us.

That was one of them. I have three bestfriends right now, one of them totally deserves the tittle of my bestfriend 'cuz she's stucked with me for a long time. But my other bestfriend, it also took me 2 years to give her the tittle of a bestfriend. She ditched me of course and over some stupid reason. Basically we had a dance assignment and she constantly kept dancing to the boys (SNSD) I told her to stop because we had to really finish the assignment (i guess i had said it in a y tone cuz of reasons that happens in certain times of months) and she called me ... i don't really know if it was serious, she said it in a serious tone but she had called me many times for playfull matters/ (you know that stage of friendship when you can bully eachother...)

Then we finished the assignment, over and done with, end, finish. And so my other friend started danceing to infinite and i asked her to teach me since we were basically now just sitting around doing nothing so she taught me. But the girl who called me came up and pushed me (playfully... I'm hoping) and i acted all offended and that, like the sarcastic person i am and in a totally sarcastic tone, right after a sarcastic sentence i called her a hypocrite...

And now she's avoiding me and giving all my seats to her 'new' bestfriend since we have the same classes together and we sat next to eachother. So now i'm forced to sit either by myself or next to a stranger.

I don't know why this is happening and i'm not expecting you guy to know too... but i needed to let it out...

Anyways thanks for atleast reading it... It's lame and your story is nothing compared but is this normal? (I sound like a dumb person now right? Hmph, of course! i am pretty dumb...)