I am just normal... that's what I always thought...I am just doing the same things like other people's doing--or so I thought...

I just went out to take my "lunch", yeah and I ate alone... I sat down to one of the benches in the park and stared the lights from the posts...it's dark and cold

and I felt ...sad? I wonder if it's sadness, I always love that feeling, sad and gloomy weather makes my day, sad and gloomy ambiance sets my mood...

when I'm sad I felt "happy", I don't know why...and my friends well they are not that many though, I dont have lots of friends, acquaintances maybe... they

said I must be crazy...they say I'm WEIRD...

I am pondering to my feelings right now, since this time I am feeling sadness with its literal meaning...I AM REALLY SAD! I am alone my friends are not with

me... maybe they are right ...maybe I tend to isolate myself...maybe I need to mingle too, to have atleast have a nice conversation and not just facing my pc

or books...

But...

I think I already forgot how to socialize... I became use of being like this that I dont know how to be different aside from being this...

I am alone and sad literally S-A-D...