That is how I feel right now... I feel tired, exhausted, tense, stressed, helpless, small, I feel restless... This is mostly because of my work... A lot of my co-worker already resigned and them making me feel the same too. This company giving me stress... Sure, people can say just quit but.. this company, this place will bring me closer to what other people been dreaming of... I could be successful one day but... All these works, responsibility making me feel miserable....

This is why I don't want to be adult. I wish I was always 9 years old.... Having no big reasonability, no big dreams... where my biggest dream during that age maybe just watch the cartoon I want right on time and my brother doesn't take over the tv.... Ah.. I miss those days... Yes I miss my childhood because I barely had it.... I always wish I can go back time. When my old house was still there, not demolished. I missed playing around my house with my neighbours, exploring things...

What I can say right now is I feel so effing miserable..... I don't know what I'm suppose to do. I don't know what I'm suppose to believe. I wish I have a lot of money that I just can quit and travel all around the world...

So... if you reading this and you are still in young age, don't waste your time. Use it good and do something memorable. Because when you are an adult, all these bigger problems will come to you and you just wish you can go back.....