I'm so sorry that I have to bring my unhappiness over here on AFF. I always hope that my post are those that share and spread joy to people. But I really can't take it anymore. I can't rant on my own twitter or Facebook because my real time friends and followers think I'm an attention . But look, I'm human. As much as I don't wanna show that I'm upset, I'm still not imperfect. I really feel so useless. I can't study well enough to have a secured place in my local uni, I do singing because it's my life long dream to be a singer but I'm not good enough. I go for vocal classes but I still feel I can't match up to people's expectations. My dreams of being a singer seems so far away from me. I can't study and can't sing. I can't do anything. I'm so hopeless that people just wanna unfollow or unfriend me on twitter and facebook. Argh. Makes me so upset that I don't want to do anything. I need to keep writing my FF but I'm not in the best spirits to do so. Though it's just 2 subscribers, I still don't want to let them down and short change them. I wanna put in my hard work to write it. I can't do anything well. Period. I'm only meant to be a fan girl that stands afar, be it at a concert or just quietly supporting my idols by just buying a few copies of their CDs, and just be contented with it. Sigh. But that's not what I want. I may sound like a fool and sound ambitious, and I may even sound ridiculous. You guys might think that "hey, who does this girl think she is." I'm so sik of being judged by my own friends. I can't take it. Is it really that wrong to want to be a singer one day? Sigh. Sigh again. I won't make you guys more depressed already. Bye.