Okay, so there's a guy, Matthew, and i like him soooooo much it sort of hurts but all we do is talk and even when he had a girfriend i didn't stop liking him but the thing is i have a friend Savannha, and she is one of the prettiest girls i have ever met so compared to her, i am basically a deformed potato and i was jokingly asking matthew who out of my friends he would date and he basically said all my other friends except me because i'm like a little sister to him and that hurts me so freaking much. He's been single for like, 2 days but i can already tell that he's gonna ask out Savannha soon, i can feel it in my toes, and i think it'll happen at animania if she doesn't date some other guy that she knows before that. Even so, that doesn't give me any more of a chance and i want to cut off my ties with him so badly but i just keep coming back to him because apparently he loves conversing with me and we talk about the funniest things. Except now, i'm giving him tips on what he should do to make her happy which makes me feel like such an idiot and UGH!

i hate adolescence and falling in love easily, which i do, and it just results in another emotional breakdown.