I haven't been following the K-pop world lately because I was swamped with work, and when I opened up my social media account today the first thing that I see was an article confirming that Karina is currently dating.

And oh man, all sorts of memories from way, way back, things I used to actively suppress, immediately flooded my mind.

I have always been a Girls' Generation fan. I was familiar with them as early as late 2007 - early 2008, but it was not until the Gee era that I got HOOKED. Just like any other K-pop fan, I was religiously following every single media they've been putting out (thank you Soshified for making it happen!), and before I even understood what a spazzer meant, I ended up being a huge spazzer myself. I would defend SNSD from any slander in any forums available back then, even joining fanwar after fanwar. To say I was heavily invested in them was a huge understatement - they became my life.

And then one day, I opened up my social media and saw the breaking news of the day: Tiffany and Nickhun confirmed dating.

As a Locksmith, this BROKE me. All of my beliefs and thoughts about Taeyeon and Tiffany crashed down on me hard. I was not mad nor sad, but I was hurting. Of course I was fully supporting Tiffany in her happiness, but there was that heart ache that I just can't seem to put away.

So if you happen to be the biggest WinRina fan, I want to give you a hug. I completely understand how you might be feeling with this news. And let me tell you now, it will get better.

People may think we're cringe, or we are being greedy - even delusional - but this has always been a part of being in a fandom. Don't be afraid to admit that this is hurting you, and don't feel bad or guilty if you wouldn't want to hear any news about them (Aespa or Karina) for the next few days, weeks, months, years. Take time for yourself to recover, and don't hesitate to leave the fandom for good if that's what you need for your peace of mind.

But if you do decide to come back to the fandom, all I hope is that you can now understand that these idols have their own lives. And while they (at times) decide they want to let us in on what was happening to their lives, that should not mean that we are privy in knowing about their private lives.

Things will get better, and I just hope that this matter should not stop you from supporting the group as well as the actor. 

But with that being said, I will still continue writing WinRina s. If you're still reading my stories, thank you. And I hope that you can wait more patiently for my next chapters!