wow. it's been almost 10 years since i last opened this account bec 1) got busy and 2) forgot my password haha. i cant believe i started this accounf when i was 12 years old in elementary school and now im a 23 yr old college graduate ??

thru the years ive always had random blips of memories about this acc, how much fun i had writing stories and making poster graphics; i eventually took up advertising arts bec i found my love for art through opening virtual graphic request shops  just bec i liked doing it. i remember going through asianfanfics a couple of times growing up, trying to desperately remember anything about my account. i wrote like 6 fics in this acc and i couldnt remember a single one HAHA i think it was me trying to repress the memories of my cringey writing, but i eventually figured out the username & password through a lot of snooping. going through my stories and blogs gave me the nostalgia i never knew i needed to feel. suddenly i could feel the old keyboard i was typing on, the squeaky chair i sat on, and the feeling of the summer heat radiating through our window. i did stop writing around the time i left aff (although i wrote a oneshot about sting and an oc in ff.net sometime around 2015?) because it just wasnt something i was interested in anymore, and life happened.

its also crazy to think how much kpop grew in a decade, i always thought id stick to shinee and exo but i eventually fell out of love, moved on to other grps, fell out of love with kpop entirely, just to come back to it in 2023 and rediscover my fangirling self. sidenote, can we talk about how kris became a se*ual predator ??? like??? nobody saw that coming

im jsut honestly word vomiting rn bec im still in reeling in the fact that in finding this account i feel like i found my old self, the one that didnt have the kind of problems i have rn lmao but im just glad im able to relive my childhood thru this acc :) 

if any of my old subs/friends here still remember me, drop a comment and lmk how ur life is going !