Is it because I feel kinda lonely right now? or is it because I miss someone who had treated me like a queen and now I don't have anyone to treat me like that again? Like I wanna date and and have fun and be with someone and have someone that I can love but fsr I always meet NSA/ND people or I get ghosted by my loved ones within a month or so.. I know it's a me problem and I need to fix myself. I kept trying and trying and trying and when I got comfortable being alone and started loving myself, someone will come along, steal my heart and then rip it apart, getting me back to square one. 

"You should love yourself!"
"thats the only answer to your problems! love yourself"

I am tired of being told those words. 

It feels invalidating fsr. Like... let me just complain and just.. idk. 

I miss being loved.