How do you tell someone you miss them without disturbing their peace?


Simple. You don’t.


If they have found their way to move on without you, it’s selfish of you to try and reach out to them, only to drown them with you. That is why you must bear such burden while trying to find your way too. Even if missing them has become the only constant emotion left - day in, day out - you deserve it. Yes, you deserve the pain and the longing and the misery. No, you don’t get to tap on even a single brick on the wall that they have built from the rubbles. After all, you were the hurricane that came and left them in ruins. 


They have moved on - accept that. 


They have gone through hell and back just to achieve their peace - respect that. 


I don’t care if you’re losing sleep reminiscing the times you had together, those are nothing more than memories - you can't bring them back. I don't care if every time you close your eyes, you find yourself playing different scenarios where you get to be happy with them - it's never going to work. I don't care if regret is eating you alive, thinking if things would play out differently because of what ifs - what's done is done. Isn't it the whole point in the first place - to break the toxic cycle? Then why are you still here? But quite frankly, I couldn't care less about what you do with your life or how you plan to cope with these things. I absolutely do not care that maybe you want another shot with the love of your life. you for that, by the way. I only care about stopping you from bringing down the walls they've built to protect themselves from you. Because I am the part of you who truly loves them.

I am the part of you who saved them from the pathetic mess that you are, because you do not deserve them. Maybe at one point in life, you did. Maybe that's why they became a part of you; so much so that without them, you will always feel that there's something missing. You have to live with that until you find a part of yourself that can maybe, ever so slightly, fill the void. So please, leave them alone. You owe them so much, at least give them this - a life without you and the peace it brings. And if one day, someday, they find it in them to seek you out, I will not stop you from being with them. But until then, they deserve to enjoy a life knowing happiness without you. And I suggest that you do the same.

But if you must - and I know you do - love them from afar. Because I know you love them still, always.