My family. Well specifically, my aunt on my mother's side, to which I'm currently living. Is what I could call. Uhm.

Hypocrite. 

I mean almost everyone has that tendency, we would agree to a certain idea with someone but at the same time, we would judge or make comments about it. But this certain topic that she just made comments about makes my blood boil. 

First of all, yours truly is a lesbian. But no, I haven't come out with my family or friends not yet anyway. Just here, a site filled with fanfics and strangers. So back to the rant, she made comments about LGBTQ+ community. And it took every single damn restraint inside my body to contain the anger seeping up to me. Because if I let it out, I probably wouldn't have any house to live in and might die outside because of the virus, so contain it Biskuwit.

Anyways, I drifted away again, sorry. When in front of others, she looks so supportive about that community, even talking about their rights, (I deleted her speech in my mind as it had been tainted forever). Oh and also, she had a lesbian daughter, but her child is not living with her anymore. At first I was moved by her kind and sincere words towards them when we're watching TV with guests. And at night, I was about to come out to her when I heard her talking to her husband, saying things like how disgusting they are and how they defy the words of the Bible and so on and so forth, like she even scoffs at the news before when the topic is about 'that' community, or that's what she would call it. How can someone do that? How can she hate people without actually knowing them?

She doesn't have the right to do that. So I sometimes quip back to her and say "Of course they need rights, they're still humans you know?" but I never went beyond that, because I'm also scared. I couldn't defend them properly because I'm scared of their judgments.  Her judgments. 

Maybe were just the same?