Valorous, Keen, Truly Humble (V Kim TaeHyung)
I was in the classroom, thinking about something so that I can apply what I learned from the lesson thatday into something useful. I was deep in my thoughts when my classmate introduced me into a new world, a world which includes you. I was not really interested at it at first but when I saw you, my eyes lit up. Actually, you were not the one I noticed at first. It was someone else but your uniqueness made me noticed you, too. You were not the same as others. I may say you seemed 'weird' compared to your friends but there was something in you that made me be very interested. Was it your eyes? Your smirk? Your extraordinary facial expressions? Your moves? Your aura? I don't know. I could not point it out. I actually liked somebody else but there was something in you which made me look into your eyes and be curious about the individuality of this person. I wanted to know him, I thought.
As I started to be more curious about your mysterious stance, I could not help but ask why many girls like you. He is good looking, yes. But not every good looking person is likeable, I thought. What makes this person so likeable? It seems many girls fell head over heels on this dorky guy. A guy who is so good looking but confidently makes funny faces. Is he that proud? I thought. As I kept on looking on the answers of a lot of why's, I also tried to understand the heart of these girls. These girls were actually giggling on the sight of him. My god! 🤦♀️ He was just standing over there, doing nothing. Then he would make this huge smile which exposed his teeth that made his cheekbones more visible. A smile that I'm not sure if it is forced or not. Then, the girls would even let out a loud squeak. I could only shake my head on the sight of that. Then one day, just like a bulb that lits up, I finally understood why.
It was one fine day, a day I know I will see you once again. This time, I could see you much more closer than before. Because before this time, I was only looking from afar. I saw you blank-faced. It looked like you were so deep in your thoughts, spacing out somewhere so far from this world. Then when you saw the sight of me, the sight of us, your expressionless face turned into a beautiful bright smile. A smile so true and sincere. You smiled so brightly that it seemed like anything cold could eventually melt down. I think even the coldest person on earth could stir up on the sight of you. Your sight made my heart melt like an icecream sitting under the sun.
I was surprised and taken aback that I could feel like this because of you. I felt an incredible happiness in my heart. All of my why's was replaced with a lot of 'Oh's'. 'Oh, that's why', I muttered to myself. I could not remove the smile on my lips. I could just admire that person over there, who effortlessly brings happiness to the people around him. I cannot believe that the mood in a room can change just because of a person. The vibrant aura you gave off could fill a large room of people with smiles on their faces. That's it! You have the ability to influence other people through your heartwarming smile and generous heart.
Now that I had the idea why every girl goes crazy about you, my curiosity even became bigger. My greediness to know you has even increased more than what I have expected. I don't want to just know you through that superficial smile. I know there is something else other than that. While other people enjoyed what you wanted to show, I continuously looked on what is invisible in the eye. I wanted to know what is living behind that smile. I know every smile conceals something, like a mask, hiding the deepest dark secrets. I knew that too well.
Just like other girls in the room, I admired you so much. Your attractiveness, your dorkiness, your bright personality, the iness. But beyond that, what I admire the most is that person hiding behind that beautiful bright smile. The person who is real, vulnerable, in pain, but can still muster up all the courage to be able to give off a very sincere smile. Showing your smile for us to see, masked how thrilling and difficult your journey has been. I loved how courageous you were to leave your comfort zone just to be where you are right now. You know well that it would not be an easy journey but still you were brave enough to take on the challenge. You were there not just to pass the road but to cross it with flying colors. I could notice how hardworking you are and how you strive for excellence. For all the sacrifices, the hardships, the breakdown and insanity behind that smile, I feel so proud. For the brightest smile you give us, I will always remember what that symbolized for.
It's been years and I still do not know what is on your mind. Your deep thoughts that swallowed you every time, I am so eager to know all about them. How this brain of yours works. The moments you were silent, expressionless and the moments you just stared to thin air. Im longing to know you more. That's why I am always here, wishing I could be one step closer to you, to help you, to support you, to make you happy, to be another reason for your smiles. That someday I could hear your stories straight from you, and not just a person who observe you from afar.
I know for now, that thought seems impossible but I could see your efforts to open your heart to me, to us. And I am so thankful for that. You remained humble despite every blessing you received. Your generous heart overflowed. You remained everything you were, except better.
Valorous. Keen. Truly Humble.
These are the words I came up with to describe you.
From a Little boy, now a grown-up Man, I'm proud of everything you were, you are and you will ever be. Thank you for being born in this world. My love will always be with you. Our story does not end here. It will continue forever.
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