Actually i lost my self esteem. Yeah my ex because of her. My friends really hate her for what she did. I think she is my worst ex. After we broke up we agreed to stay as a friends and i trying so hard for it. But after 2 months we broke up she already have someone i can't even move a inch from her and she already got a new one?? And until now she already have 3/4 people that she like or even court? I dont know. Like hell girl i am still cant move and you already forget me like that. 

What more worse it she comparing me with her new one, like she said that they are more beautiful or handsome, they are have a hot muscle. Hell i am a basketball player i play futsal, volleyball and badminton too. I have a muscle too you damn. And believe me guys when she said muscle its not even a muscle thats girl just have a big bone so its looks big on her arms, while me i just have medium body.she eveb said that girl giving her much gift and cost a much. Hell i even broke my wallet becuase of her and she compare me to a doctor?(that girl is doctor ofc she has a money) while i am just a collage girl that time. I dont have a money i work as part timer as a tutor, and she got my money most, i even just eat a nodles and egg when i dont have a money. 

The worst is she is still have a gut to step on my dignity she tell me that infront of me, or she show how startrucks she is while telling them or how heartbroken she is when they are have a fight. Dont she consider my feelings? I want to cry that times but i know i would look more pathethic than i am so i stay strong. I even consider her feelings when there are a boy or girl courting me. happen i should not believe her and fall for her.

I love her. Thats what i said to my friends when they ask me. She is my first girlfriend (yeah i am a bi and not every one know) so just a few of my friend know. I hate that i cant tell the world about it. But yeah not everyone accept same gender relationship.

I really hope that i can move and open my heart again. Even its hard cz my pure heart has been destroyed by an evil ex. Sometimes i hope she is get the karma but i dont want to be a bad people. All of my life i always being a good people, maybe she is tired of me because i am just too good too plain for her liking.

Enough guys i dont know how to express my feeling, but atleast i can pour my feelings here.

Good day

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