This is definitely NOT an update for new story, I'm sorry guys.

It's been few years since everything went down to , and I would like to address this matter here for you all lovely readers.

Back in 2014 when I started developing Joonyoung's related fanfiction, I was all in with him. Not just his music, which was the first thing I was exposed to, but all of his activities and varieties and whatnot. His WGM stint with JYM had given me so much laugh in the time when I really needed it the most. It's not exaggeration that his segment on this show had an important role in my life, as I believe in yours too.

I know I haven't been the most productive writer. My update is often times short and rare. But I do have a lot of finished drafts and unfinished stories on them. Life just gets in the way, I apologize. But I really appreciate you guys taking time to read the stories, and leave comments too! It's a pleasant surprise every time you guys left comments. Thank you, so so much, for all the feedbacks and sweet messages :3

Then the scandal happened. It breaks my heart to a million pieces, knowing that he has done all the hideous things, realizing how hard I supported him in many ways I could for years, for him. At first, I felt angry. What a piece of he has been. How can I be so blind? All those atrocious crimes he has committed, the many times we all see the signs but rubbing it all of as him being "different" and "authentic".

Then, the anger subsides. But I don't feel anything for him anymore. There's just numbness, I guess.

On the cognitive level, I know that human has many facets and we definitely cannot define someone simply as either bad or good person. There is no such thing as singular personality like that. I understand that even though he has done terrible things, and is definitely an equivalent of human thrash, I cannot deny the fact that he has done something good as well. He has done good with his music that touches the lives of many. He has made many people laugh with his antics. He sure made my life a little bit brighter when everything felt dark.

But I still cannot be in peace with all the horrible things he has done. Moreover, the case drags out so much, eventhough now I am glad that the verdict is out. 

Which brings me to this fanfic. I will not delete these stories, if you are curious. I love my writings too much I guess, haha. I do love writing this story. I love doing the research and come up with ideas and crazy possibilities to write. But I cannot continue to do that after the scandal happened. I am not really sure whether you guys ever come back here after he is convicted and deemed guilty, or whether you guys are still in asianfanfic at all. I love writing about these two because they give me so many ideas and I like the writing process it gives me. After the anger and numbness resided, now I am left only with sadness. Not for him, because he did something wrong and deserved the punishment. But I am sad, for all the story drafts sitting on my laptop untouched. For you, (probably non-existent) future readers that may be confused with how I left things. For me, for all the memories and friends and a sense of community I gained after knowing him, that will be no more. Now, I can't even think of him without squirming and being disgusted over that heinous actions he did.

So I apologize. For I will never be able to write any more chapters on this story. For you probably have a take on his case different than mine. But I do want to thank you. For being here and reading my written imagination. For commenting and liking and subscribing. For encouraging me to keep writing.

I hope Jung Joon Young has touched your life in a positive way. I hope these little stories have given a little something good for you. I hope you can continue living a good life regardless of what he is doing. And I do hope you are happy, healthy and content wherever and whenever you are.

Cheers and thank you!!