Heyyyy!!!!

soooooo I haven't been active on aff for a few days now... this is just gonna lengthen as I focus a bit more on studies..... I'm gonna miss ull so much, these last few days already felt empty without my chanbaek fic reading time and drabblies :') but guess gotta feel that way for a little longer (very longer) this hurts so bad, I just stopped insta for a while and I had to get rid of soundcloud, vlive, the exol app(which I might never be able to download again as it stopped), and many other appps that were related to exo, I only have their music now and I've been listening to promise, bird, paper cuts, cry, that's okay, and so on.... 

Being a full time exol, today I took a very hurtful and strong step by pausing this life for a while. Mum said the way I was going I will regret later on for not focussing and Jongin said, "don't like me if u don't like to study, in the future u will regret this time. Exo shouldn't be your destruction in life, but should be ur inspiration" I've mentioned this before but today I'm acting on it. I'm going on a long term leave as an exol. But don't worry cause I'm an exol by heart always. I will deffo be back. I want to come play my story to hehe, and wanna finish reading so many.

oh one more challenging thing I faced was having to empty my gallery of exo... TTTTTTTT this was the most painful bit, it felt like I was comeplety getting rid of them and it hurt. (Don't ask why I had to do it because I can't answer that but I had to) and I deleted more than 1000s of pictures and vids, I only left baeks kiss (he posted for yeol bday) one jongdae pic that I just couldn't delete. The exo 6 members pic when they all were smiling and looking at sehun, (it too beautiful to delete) and one chanbaek. Also one more pic that had a wording on it, one that I literally explained my situation, "like exo members, even exol Will persue their own life's, and one day in the future when they remember exo I wnat them to say it was nice being fans of exo" that's what exo said TT and I can't write it in exact words cause paper cuts is playing AGAIN and I'm tearing up... omg this hurts I'm not being over dramatic, it really is how I am!! And for me exo became so so so important in these 3 years that not seeing them always hurts and I wnat be posting about them on insta and I wnat be making memes using them or vids for them!! I wnat be interacting or commenting TT 'don't wanna be out of time..' baeks crying oh nooooo why did I download this one.... it's the paper cut where they sang before Minseok enlists and so break just cried and I cried snore and ibddgsjjsk

BREATH!!!

ok guys I jut wanna say don't forget me, I love Ull and one day will be back... hopefully this year itself.. and I'm still and definitely listening to Suho in March 30!!! I'm looking forward to it! I will still listen to all their music and all. I just won't be able to follow them throughout but it enough for now ^^
 

Love u guy again!! And do I know the rules?? Hehe

make sure to.... (this is goodbye and it hurts... I don't want to cineplex this cause I know once I do I'm off) so.. don't forget to.. TT

1)love urself (cause that's what u deserve)

2)love chanbaek (cause they are so real)

3)love exo (caus wthey make me smile)

4)love ur parents ( cause they do everything for us)

5) love people around you (I make someone's day)

6)and bye I love you (this hurts oh god!)

7) eXOXO (my signature hehe :')