Hello,

These past few weeks have been hectic with work, life and study simultaneously. Now that i have a moment to spare to my craft and emotional growth and do what I can for y'all. in order to shwo my state of mind, foryour interest, let me share a snippet about my life.

Recently I've found a conversation partner; it's more like they wish to speak to me and I'm following through. It's very dry, however it's interesting, I don't think I've ever faced such a relaxed dynamic in any sort of conversation where someone made the effort to speak to me. Typically I get this strong urge to carry a conversattion with quiet folk, but my conversation partner makes things interesting as I don't know what on earth they're thinking about. The less I think about them the more I do what is in my nature.

With dearfriends one can share openly, however with this conversation partner I speak very consicely, recipricaitng the careless; in few words there seems to be abit of understanding and a bluntness that comes out. I don't think it's rude but I don't think it's the kindest either. Then again, neither am I. 
On random topics there is good discussion, but on the real facts of life it's bitter and upfront. i'm not oging to lie my conversaiton partner is incredibly dry, but they make an effort to keep going andi  appreciate their effort to keep up the conversation. 

When asked; they're fine, and I'm fine. despite not giving room for nothing ot be spoken about, my conversation partner keeps trying. So I thoguht I'd try too. I sent a picture of the sunrise this morning, and in a conversatoin of few words I enjoyed the lack of barrier a few words hold...perhaps as an author it's something I need to explore more.

How is all this relevant? as much as I'm empted to start a new writing project, i guess it's teaching me more in terms of human relations. Over messaging with few words it's hard to understand the moods, intentions and weight of words. At times in person conversaitons with quiet individuals it's the same. the desire to say or communicate more is there, but maybe it's social anxiety in the moment or a personal barrier that cna prevent parties form communicaitng, especially hwne both way want to.

All this helped me understand the tension and difficulty to put a finger on such moment in the last few chapters of Change (26-30). I needed to do this forthe pair, which is why it took such a logn time to write it. I hope Change continues to grow as a piece of art, and i hope it grows the reader's understanding on such relations. Marriage is hard, but it's beautiful and worth it.

To my dearest readers. I sincerly thank you for being there and erading my work. I don't know who you are but your support with a subscription has given me so much strength. I cherish your time to read my work even though it's not the best out there, this is my perosnal best. I tear up as i wirte this blog post, for my craft is a fragment of my soul on paper. it's nto great, but it's enoguh to have you read this far. 

Thank you, may life continue to inispire and motivate me to write craft that is worth your time.

Sincerly,

ScholarJayKay.